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oh the endless guilt and frustration
when you are nineteen years old, is it really normal to be unable to come and go as you please, see who you want to see, stay out til you want to come back and do other normal things? like visit friends you havent seen in four or more months? and its not like i can say anything because there is the constant cloud of "dont upset your mother" . i ( Read more... ) -
days go by
i moved to louisiana officially four months ago. i'm back in alabama visiting til august first. so since no one gets on here anymore i can pretty much use this journal for what it was intended to be. i need to vent. i feel like my parents are the gestapo. i am unable to choose almost anything for myself. they act like oh its all up to you haha. ( Read more... ) -
sometimes cigs make me throw up
WOW it's been awhile. Sept 28th adam dumped me, I broke my finger, and then slowly after weeks of seperation and anxiety he started coming around again. we are in a weird place now. We can only say i love you's if he initiates it. we only spend time together when he wants to.shot calla. I finally stopped seeing the friend. I am not how i used to be ( Read more... ) -
NO SUBJECT
I don't think my aunt will ever invite Lauren and I back again. Yesterday was one of those almost perfect days. Donnie, Leah, and I went to LaBourge and the park and threw rocks at the alligators. Donnie stuck his arm over the fence and almost got it bit rite off. I say "almost perfect" because I got salsa on my shirt, and that's never* cool. ( Read more... ) -
why is that 12yr old driving?
Sometimes, listening to "Blue October" makes me a little teary eyed. The weather in La, is incredibly hott. Casey looks like me. I love to swim, but not in above ground pools cause Donnie pees in it..who am I kidding..so do I. I miss the park in huntsville. I heart Wentworth Miller. I have not been kissed in a long time. I almost miss Candice... ( Read more... ) -
I want to eat Subway
If music were a person I'd shoot them. I want to eat some subway and I need to go to the tanning bed. I am starting to look like Casper again. I heart snow cones...I LOVE FOOD. My favorite things..
Food
Food
Food
Food
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Rite now
I am in Louisiana now, and my mind always works so different here. Yesterday was my birthday and I enjoyed it thouroughly. I got my nails done for the first time in my whole life. I ate birthday cake and ice cream. Casey asked for my fone number Sunday nite. Donnie is my favorite. I love the people in my life. I love my friends and I love my family -
"do it on purpose"
So Wednesday after work, I found myself in an all too firmilar situation. When I got home, the only one who knew was the dog. Sniffing my legs and arms suspiciously. What have I done? This question bounces around in my head. What was I thinking? I don't think I even care that much anymore. Why should I? I do not see the importance the way I used to ( Read more... ) -
i hate her
"Do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind." -
"you are my sweetest downfall"
We just had a firedrill...Anyways, Adam and I are continuing on our three year saga to no where. Pam had some issues I was not aware of, and so she moved out. I'm okay, and I think she is too. Jonathan called me at 12 this morning and I was confused because I was asleep. We talked for eight minutes, and I'm not certain about what exactly. I hate ( Read more... )