Things simmer down from the long inside boiling/breaking point of my mind. Life is improving but still the same issues linger. Till now, plenty of misery mixed with times of joy, seemingly trying 2 balance out but failing 2 succeed. Overpowered by 1, needing the other, survivng day in and day out; keeping the faith alive. Till later

DARKNESS ( Read more... )

No1 really knows how true the title of the song I put 2day is in my terms. There's a huge domino effect set-up 2 take place for the worst of myself and my house. Damnit I've never had so many possible scnearios loop through my mind, its my mind that will gonna first because its been pushed way the fuck 2 far. 2 try and come up with something good 2 ( Read more... )

It has been quite a while since I've updated. Been healing my hand 2 return 2 life as it once was in my recent past. Had a wonderful weekend this time, been a while since 1 of those. Went 2 the beach at about 1:00 on Sat. morning and then hung out at a Holiday Inn afterward. My arm is worn out. lol, Went 2 another friends house and had some fun ( Read more... )

Slowly think 2 myself, is what i do worth it in the end? How long will my body hold together after everything I do is all said and done? Those answers...I won't know until the events leading up 2 my answer actually comes. Anyway....long day and my stitches which I love sooooooo much ( hahaha! ) last until Friday and then I have partial freedom. ( Read more... )

MY FUCKING APPOINTMENT HAS BEEN FUCKING PUSHED BACK FUCKING AGAIN; THIS IS FUCKING BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!! I AM ABSOLUTELY PISSED AT DA MOMENT BECAUSE OFF THIS, WAS LOOKING FORWARD 2 GETTING ALL THIS SHIT OFF MY HAND BUT NOW I GOTTA WAIT EVEN MORE!!! MY PATIENCE HAS FINALLY BROKE BECAUSE EARLIER 2DAY THE FUCKING STITCHES HOOKED ON 2 THE WRAP AND PULLED ( Read more... )

Oiiiiii, just staring at the computer screen makes me feel absolutely sick inside. Went through 2nd stage reconstructive surgery yesterday and still feelin heavy effects from all the medications and anesthesia they gave me. Hell, I feel dizzy typing this. It was nice 4 Sus and Emma 2 come pay me a visit post surgery. Love them sooooo much 4 that. ( Read more... )

I am soooo tired, my legs are soooo sore, and I am soooo winded. It has been a while since I've ran like did today. Other than me beng soooo winded I've such an awesome couple of days over the past few days, its been such a wonderful time. Well, what can I say about my past few days beside them being awesome...........they were awesome!! I must be ( Read more... )

Back from a long and relaxing vacation called the weekend; which was pretty fun. It was great. My friend and his dad came down from Lake City and we had a blast, especially on the last day of their visit. ( Sat. ) We went out and his dad bought $325 worth of sushi, he just kept the food coming, it was amazing, later that day, we went off to the ( Read more... )

Hmmmmm........It seems that I have found something 2 live 4 after all so 4 those who thought that it may have been over 4 me and that I wouldnt make it through the cursed Valentine's Day; guess what, still standing my friends. What saved me is that now I am accepting whats happened 2 me lately instead of literaly mourning over my issues like I was ( Read more... )