these days i have so much time & so little structure. it's helping support a new & enthusiastic YES to new people, flirtations, taking social risks i think i wouldn't take as many of were i to have more structure. i have like 8 mild & new & old & lacking in much base flirtations with people, and i know it's helping to feed the part of me that wants ( Read more... )

with the arrival of cooler weather, me & h have been sleeping so deep lately. each morning has been a delicious over & over snooze fest, & we've settled into a comfortable routine of me holding them to get to sleep, them grabbing me in the morning. this morning we got up and walked to the green line for coffees and sweet potato burritos, and then ( Read more... )

Baruch atah Adonai elohaynu melech ha'olam asher kidshanu bemitzvotav ve'noten lanu matanat orh chazak.

seems like for a while there, and probably still, i have folks around me remembering and knowing and guessing that keys are a big deal & heavy object for me. not always in a unidirectional kind of arc, either; i've given keys to my loves attached to keys to the house, those beautiful ones from rona that probably open nothing which is why rona ( Read more... )

i wanted to continue looking at public health campaigns and their unique ability not only to present government-or agency-funded information thought to be pertinent for public health, but also to provide a snapshot into the public hysteria around a hot-button topic. i think we'd all agree that as new information or novel angles to a health crisis, ( Read more... )

i had another dream last night about housing anxiety, which racks up two that i know of / remember. last night's dream, interestingly, combined housing anxiety with anxiety about getting into school, as well as anxiety about k ( Read more... )

-things are about to get much busier ( Read more... )

k told me that the little hammer is for breaking up toffee into little pieces so that you don't hurt your teeth.

i was all incredulous & k asked, well, what did you think it's for?

heartbreak? i said.

aw, well--heartbreak or candy, guess it's a similar enough thing.

i have a preliminary tattoo appointment this friday.

my existence is just a huge pile of lists & i'm getting so exhausted with the intense feeling that i need to stow them, write them down, for later. i'm sitting on dot's floor & trying to find the headspace to compose that list so i can let it go easier, but i just hurt so fucking badly ( Read more... )

meir shalev on the cbc. i make a dinosaur flannel reusable pad with a snap & think about his comforting, haunting inflection. before i knew who he was i knew he was israeli, & having cramps just feels like homesickness ( Read more... )