what do they say about altruism?

what is it that is making me chuck all my self-preservation insticts aside and charge head-first toward an oncoming train.

why am i choosing to stay for you.

choosing - because i  know that i am not being compelled to stay for any other reason other than free will and free will alone

so i am choosing to stay because, ( Read more... )

I hope you understand why i had to leave.

I hope you know that, through the sobbing and the heaving that night, I finally told you the truth.

That my self-worth was in too many pieces not to start being afraid.

For my sanity, for me.

And that if I stayed, I would never learn happiness, nor feel like I could ever deserve true and unconditional love.

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you're not worth it...

not now.. not then...

not anymore

maybe no 100% guy

maybe no guy at all

but definitely a 100% plan for me.

and whatever it may be,

I know I will be happy

I will have joy in the Lord,

For Thy steadfast love is great, it is great to the heavens, and Thy faithfulness to the clouds.

I exalt Thee God.

last paper in 3 and a half hours.

and then summer.

its a bittersweet concoction of excitement and apprehension.

please let this summer be beautiful

Dad called today to tell me they're moving house.

They bought a new house hoping to resell it to earn money but they couldn't find a buyer so now they're moving in to cut the big losses..

Old house is sold. Cheque received today..

It was sudden. Shocking. I never even had a hint about it.

I could've thrown a fit and go angsty on him. But i knew how ( Read more... )

So I guess this is how it goes.

This is how it must be.

You turn left,

I turn right.

I walk away to find healing.

You walk away to be free.

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how do i stay on ( Read more... )

even puking doesn't work anymore.