so weird stuff latly ... went and turned in an aplication they told be to come back for an interveiw , called me this morning i got the job i am excited :) i am so happy . i think it is gonna be nice to have a job that i dont constently get biched at for not being goodenough i thing it is also going to be nice to have a job where i get to make ( Read more... )

So.....i have been have some ups and downs latly . Down's are as fallows ........... i have to fined a new job , josh and i got into a bad fight last night i cryed ..alot , i am broke as fuck ,i have been geting realy depressed latly over little things for no resion , been thinking about cutting again (but wont becoause josh would leave me), my ( Read more... )

I hate myself , how dare I even think that I could be perfect. why am i cursed with this cruel joke . I was thin once 90lbs and this year I have ganed 20lbs ,so i am stuck at this disgusting weight of 110lb. I try to starve / exercise but some how i always screw up *sigh* well no more miss nice girl , this new year will be different i will be ( Read more... )

I sure have not updated in forever . well lets see what to talk about .................... i am moveing this week, my love and I are moveing into a house together i am verry happy :) I still have my anarexia , but i am not 89 pounds any more i am a shamfull 110 but i am trying to fix that . the 26th is my birthday , i must say i never thought i ( Read more... )

things always seem to have the worst timeing..........
I will explane later what i am talking about..........

bad = 1 tire exploding / 1 tire falling apart both in a 2 day period bla. good=I am loseing waight i know this only because my paints are geting lose on me almost to where i need a belt that to me is the best feeling in the world. on a side note i may quit my job at the ice cream place verry soon because i am geting tired of working for such ass ( Read more... )

see ....this is what happenes when i dont have my own computer or i am to bizy to use this one . so whats wers then working to jobs and feeling like you have no time to just chil ? I'll tell you .....BEING BROKE! its so odd that even though i have worked so hard i cant make as much money as I need to make to feel cofertable . blah . anyways ... I ( Read more... )

I might DIE ! . ok i went to my docter and he told me that my anemia points are now at 8.o (wich is REALY LOW /BAD) ,then he told me that if it drops 2 more points that i will colaps and go into heart failure and die / or if i live through that i will need a blood transfusion ,blah . Also they said theres nothing I can to to get myself better ( Read more... )

Being grown up sucks!!!!!!!!!!! I work my ass off to have no money , I dont have any time to do things like pay my f*ing car ins. cuz i work the hours the ins.place is open & my heath is fucking shit'y (i.e my anemia has got worse and who knows how much i'v fucked up my body) .The only good thing I have in my life Is my love who means the world to ( Read more... )

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