So here's my situation:  I'm at a job which I absolutely hate, I live with my parents, and I have done nothing but gain weight since I moved back to Illinois. I've been at this job for three years and it didn't start getting really bad till this past year and I just can't do it any more so I have been looking for a new job and am waiting to hear ( Read more... )

I'm getting old.  So I'm not turning 30 till December but there are a few things I really want to get done before then.  First I want to be completely off nicotine no more cigarettes no more patched nothing.  Second I want to get my weight to under 200.  I really think these are doable and I believe in myself and that I can do it.  I just need to ( Read more... )

I'm sad and I don't know why.  Today was just a rough day over all.  I was running late so I didn't have time for breakfast or to make a lunch.  I ran out of cigarettes on my way to work so I didn't have time to pick those up either.  Which didn't seem like a big deal to me because I've been cutting them out of my work day.  But then when I was at ( Read more... )

So I am going to sound like a bitch and I apologize but if I don't get this out I will fester and I don't want to ( Read more... )

I really dislike how holiday time is just not enjoyable for me any more.  It's like a wedge that I just can't get out.  I've tried to get over everything, I've tried to move on with my life and leave the past in the past.  But let me tell you holiday time is not easy.  Please don't ever propose to someone on a holiday because you will completely ( Read more... )

I'm going to go take my frustration out on my garden then hopefully come back in to post about what's gotten me so peeved

I should be sleeping at least that's what I keep telling myself yet I'm wide awake with thoughts racing through my head.  The funny thing is I'm unable to pinpoint what is keeping me awake and having this maelstrom in my head.  It just isn't making sense.  Nothing is overtly wrong right now and I've been making long term goals with myself.  So what ( Read more... )

I'm so excited just got my new bras and matching underwear!  Such a shame semi-annual sales only come once a year.  Now if only I could find special reasons to wear matching sets.  Oh well in the mean time I will just enjoy them.  Simple things in life can sometimes give the greatest pleasure.  I must say though I really need to tone down my color ( Read more... )

I don't know why I do this to myself every time I come back to Illinois.  I don't know if I just get lazy or if it's because I am unhappy and stressed or what the case is.  But I always gain weight when I come back here.  In Texas I started working out and eating better so I was losing weight but now I'm back in Illinois and I put it all back and ( Read more... )

I'm actually in a somewhat decent mood right now.  No clue why I am still hurt with not being able to see my friend this weekend but oh well nothing I can do about it.  I think I'm just content at the moment and a little excited about getting to start a new book tomorrow.  I know I am a nerd but I love my books and yes I have a kindle but there's ( Read more... )