Me and bailey are doing better, still no decisions have been made. I hope that we can continually get better and i can get my meds and mind in control again. i can't find a job and have been looking constantly since december/january. im going to go and talk to my old boss at ben and jerrys and see if he can give my anything, i dont care if its ( Read more... )

She was just seventeen, pios and pretty with a deadly disease
And the weight of the world on a prosthetic shoulder
And by the summer of ‘96 her body was cracked like porcelin
Just like some Precious Moments collectable
In a hospital gown and a big bright golden halo

And so three cheers for my morose and grieving pals
And now let's hear it for the ( Read more... )

I don't know how i am supposed to feel. I guess im worried that my "disease" is getting in the way of my relationship, which it is to be honest. I'm sick, of being sick. I don't understand how my mind works and i don' think that i ever will, nor anyone else. I feel like the worst person in the world when i ask for something that is for myself and ( Read more... )

inside of my head....im in hell

i am doing good excited because bailey is coming home today and its been long lonley nights since he left. im doing much better in class. finally getting the math thing. this is my last week in this class and then i move on to resturant management. gross. i am running into people that i know that apparently go to this school... which is a little ( Read more... )

im in math and i think the only good thing about this class it the computers, the other students and the teacher. i really am horrible with math and im just beginning to understand the stuff...kinds sorta, more or less.... getting there in other words. but its not all bad. bailey leaves to california tomarrow and im not sure how i will be able to ( Read more... )

im in class. culinary math. boring.

so i compleatly suck at virtual bowl.... yeah i know that is the lamest thing anyone could have said, ever, but i do and i will admit to it.

things are well/ this week will be my last week in cooking class. i am excited and scared. i will be graduating in october. me and bailey are wonderful. and everything seems to be going good. i got to see nicole and cassy today and that made me happy. im talking to nicole more often now and i am really happy about that. because the stupid bus does ( Read more... )

everything is fine two more weeks of these cooking classes and then i move to AOS. i got fires a week or so ago from kitchen kaboodle. assholes. they said i was late way to much and that i was not happy at work (who knew that someones assumption of you being unhappy could get you fired?) oh well i still have some money left from my last paycheck ( Read more... )