i got an A on my first cake and an A on the one after that and a B on my last. so far so good. only missed on day of class. good at work. got paid. bought elaine a plane ticket to come up here in december. did some x-mas shopping for people. getting 2 yrs present in a week or so. Wedding cake nest week. final paper due on wednesday. oh my god thats ( Read more... )

Let's get fucked up and die, I'm speaking figurativly of course, like the last time that i commited suicide, social suicide. So i'm already dead, on the inside but i can still pretend and the memories and photographs, I have learned to love the lie.

I don't know what my relationship is anymore. I have no clue. Interest seem to lay elsewhere with ( Read more... )

got a new tattoo. restart school on monday. start working part-time. work from 6am until 11 school from 12pm till 5:30 pm. busy busy. get paid in 8 days. paycheck will be amazing. about 800.00 awesomness. going to have fun. grandpa died, grandma had heart attack (same day) grandma lives (thank god), cousin get put in rehab for heroin use (heavy use ( Read more... )

i wish i didnt have the past i do
i wish i  could have one decent day in my relationship
i wish i were a better student
i wish i were a better worker
i wish i was normal
i wish i could be more social
i wish i could have a relationship with my dad
i wish my dad loved me as much as he loves my brother
i wish i could be a better parent to jack
i wish i was ( Read more... )

 yeah that pretty much sums it up. i took two weeks off of school so i could try and look harder but no one wants to hire me......i hope i can get one so i can contribute to me and baileys income so ican help with bills....pay my own bills,pay off my credit card. i could get another credit card but i dont know if i would be able to make the ( Read more... )

im worried about bailey, i hope that he makes the right decisoin on when he wants to go to california and im hoping it will be what he wants. i do not want to hinder his decision. i will miss the shit out of him and wont sleep well without him next to me........but i can drug myself and sleep easy. i really hope i get the job at new seaons, better ( Read more... )

should i go to the dentist if a piece (a small one) of my molar decided to jump off? yes a piece of my molar came out when i was eating, kinda gross.

What is the point of calling someone to tell them you cant talk?I dont know, just don't call in the first place and problem solved.

So  i guess i must just be mentally ill because i can't seem to have the right reaction to anything so i just try not to have a reaction. Whenever i do it the wrong one. I don't know what to do when certain things are around and i don't know how to handle them when they keep coming up. Sorry doesnt quite work with these things no matter how hard ( Read more... )

party...still waiting for more people still got more booze yeahh. at least  the annoying girl left.