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Grinding...away the day
Well, this week has been a hellish roller coaster but for the better. A come to Jesus and save your son talk woke B up out of his idiotic misconception that he is making choices considering C even though he isn't. He chooses himself first in almost every way now that he has someone to pick up the pieces behind him. I told him I won't do it any ( Read more... ) -
Something sticky this way comes
Day three of no nicotine. I may stab B. I am pretty sure he is using. He was sweating so bad in his sleep last night that he soaked through his tank top and his hair felt like he had just gotten out of the shower ( Read more... ) -
You need and ax or an ex to start a good fire
Today I have been thinking about Rid a lot. He was my -never going to get a second chance but wish there weren't so many reasons I had to leave him.- We ended things around this same time in 2012. The fall always reminds me of him. Our first "real date," one that left the bedroom that is was up to a popular spot in town where you can see all of ( Read more... ) -
When you put wine and dinner together you get winner.
In this day and age we are hearing people say speak your mind! Holding back makes you weak. I think that today I will hold back telling my friend that I think she's a bitch because I am having a bad day and everything is frustrating me right now. I don't think I'm going to tell B that I think he's a nosey little shit because I caught him going ( Read more... ) -
Something not about B.
I realize that the past few months my posts have been circling one common trend and that would be my current squeeze and his adorable three yr. old son. It's an enormous life change and so on my mind intensely. However ( Read more... ) -
I'm too old for this...
When you date someone almost five years younger...it's a fun mess. It's exciting and wonderful to meet someone that you have amazing chemistry with, who you're physically attracted to, who carries the weight of many things on his shoulders with grace. We all sit at the table and say "wow, B is so impressive for his age." the thing we have to ( Read more... ) -
Full-time work, part-time school, mommy extraordinaire....
College classes began last week. I am taking two. FML. Working 40 hrs. School about 6 hrs a week not so bad...the not having a car and having 20 mins to an hr transit between each place is what really slows me down. The 3 yr old is just icing on my busy cake ( Read more... ) -
The exhaustion sets in..
The waves of why flood my tired mind. I have slept a collective of 15 hrs in the past three days. B has been working at 4 AM and as soon as he leaves for work it seems that C is immediately up whimpering and stirring over the sickness that he's been fighting the past few weeks. I have had several parenting fails in the past week. I learned that ( Read more... ) -
Mother May I; or Shall I Lie?
Today marks the seventh day of the first week of the biggest, quite possibly most foolish decision of my adult life. I weighed my options and decided to let my guard down with B. I decided that I could keep a secret if I had to and have in all ways completely fallen head over heals for him. I watch him, he is humble and kind and loves his son ( Read more... ) -
Bottles of wine and that Ferris wheel
It's a quarter to eleven and I'm awake against my own personal wishes and the sleep door that my body is knocking at and begging for. I have to wait up for the teen curfew and make sure my niece beats the clock to avoid a shitty chore.(the punishment that has been decided by sister/best friend/roommate) My desire to fill the interweb with ( Read more... )