You know what fucking irritates me? The fact that all of my "old" friends seem to find time to communicate to one another but not I? What the fuck is that about? You guys all FUCKING suck! Except Amy!

P.S. If you guys were good friends you would know that I was in the hospital for like two fucking weeks. Thanks for the flowers and visits.

Ok, Not that anyone ever reads any of my journals anymore or anything. But a couple of things are going on in my life. So Monday I am at work eating breakfast only to be told that one of my friends was in a car accident on the freeway and that she had to be life flighted to the hospital. Wonderful! So I do to visit her thinking maybe she isn't that ( Read more... )

I just wanted to let everyone know that I am now 21 years old. Further more, I am in Europe.... not forever. But still I am here and I love it so much that I don't think that I will ever be the same once I am gone. I had a great time on my b-day. We went out to a pub and then a club. Lots of fun. Crazy to think that after all of this, I get to go ( Read more... )

Why is it that death comes when you lease expect it. I found out today that I lost someone that I looked up to just the other night. Her girlfriend broke up with her and she decided that there was no reason to go on. Such a selfish thought to enter a persons mind.... Forget the son, family, and friends that she leaves behind. I'm not quite sure how ( Read more... )

Ok, here I go again, I am going to get a bit melodramatic.... So I got my hair done all crazy yet again. I like it but it has stirred up a lot of shit that it always does. "My Mother" is again disapointed in the way I portray myself at her job. How many times can I say what a bad idea it was to go and work there? Yesterday when she got home I was ( Read more... )

I know that this is a random entry but the yesterday I was reading my book at about 4:30 and something told me to go up to Berryessa... I know I know, I am wierd and it wasn't so much a voice as just a feeling. Weird thing is, I HATE that lake, it is evil, very very evil. It scares me so much, that I had no idea what I was doing. Anywho, as I was ( Read more... )

WOW is all I have to describe the events of last night. Even thinking about it again makes me lose my breath. I went on a date with a super awesome person. And I didn't even think that they like me until we were watching a movie and they held my arm. I almost died. Then we did some bookstore browsing and they were like did you want to call it a ( Read more... )

So tonight I got to hang out with another one of my grandfathers, whom I have met like twice. And it just brought up so much more pain then I wanted to feel. I mean, anyone that I seem to have a chance to consider family, passes away on me. And I just cant handle getting close to someone again only to lose them in a year or two. So I held back from ( Read more... )

So someone called me a fat cow! What the hell? I am not fat, granted I am not a stick, but who really wants to be like that? Goodness, people really piss me off. Did I tell everyone how much I love my truck. I really do. I know this is creepy but Rosie and I went driving last night and we wondered upon the old fire site where they found two bodies ( Read more... )

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