I know that my journal is becoming more and more of a bitching journal but oh well. I really don't understand myself. I was going to say that I don't understand life, but more so, I don't understand myself. I feel so stuck here, I hate Dixon. And even after it being such an unsafe place for me for so long I still stay here. I use to have such big ( Read more... )

So, I wrote the journal following yesterday and then I took it off because I didn't think I wanted to share it will all of you. But I decided to, today. I was in such a shitty mood. But no worries. I am back to me again, evil sad anthony went away, only to return another day. Things are going ok. Josh is going to Europe. I am so happy for him. ( Read more... )

Life, what a fucking joke. You are born into this world only to go thought the pain of having to grow up, to try and find your way. It is like blind folding a small child and sending them out to find food. Not only does the child not know which way to go, but nobody is there to really help them. If he finds the food he lives and if he doesn’t he ( Read more... )

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Yeah, so Amy and I went to dinner tonight. It was very interesting. We went to Murillos and we are sitting there when we heard some mexican music. And we laughed at the people being sang to. Right... don't ever do this. They came over to us and started singing. I was trying not to laugh so I shoved food in my mouth and I started to gag... Then I am ( Read more... )

Ok everyone, I know I haven't wrote anything in such a long time. I have been super buys. So, it finally happened. I turned 20, it honestly feels the same as any other age, but atleast i'm not a teenager anymore. My birthday was pretty cool, we went to dinner, they sang me happy birthday at work. It was so cool, they got a piece of cake and four ( Read more... )

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Wow, so my last enty was really sad. But I can't help the way that I feel. I am kind of in a sad mood right now, but trying to think of all the happy thoughts that I have somewhere inside. So yeah, any minute I should be smiling... NOPE. Oh well, So I went and visited josh this weekend, it was so much fun. We had a great time, we did cool things ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder how it is possible that I live in this place. How I am surrounded by these people. They drive me insane half the time yet I feel like I am letting them down if I leave. Life gets put into such a cycle after a while. And no matter how much you hate it, you can't get away. I know I say this so often, but I truly do wish that I ( Read more... )

Soo I finally got my hair cut and colored. I did it blond and brown but the majority of it is blond. And I love it... I wonder if blonds really do have more fun. Only time will tell. I hope everyone is doing good. I haven't really talked to anyone lately. So... yeah. My allergies are bothering me because of the stupid wind. Damn you mother nature ( Read more... )