grrr being inside my head sucks. i need to be the following things:
not a worry wart.
not jealous.

i need to be:
confident

do'h. if anyone has any suggestions, let me know, please

ok scratch last post ( Read more... )

i'm kind of really done trusting men for boyfriend candidates. i think i'll just have friends. i don't want kids any day anyway, so i mean. i really don't have to date people to find "the one." i won't be procreating anyway. life will be way easier, screw "heart break" man. i don't even wanna go there again. so, i won't! take that, life ( Read more... )

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOU ( Read more... )

i have a date i have a date i have a date
he is a really nice boy
from the apple store
today he met me when i got out of work, before he had to go to work
i randomly christmas shopped
he carried my bags
he held my hand
and i'm happy :)

so that pizza was not the same pizza.
anywho.
god i miss mike. i can't even put it into words. i'd try, but only tears would come.

first time i heard this song was with mike. it was fantastic.

home is weird. its um, not home. but my family is here. so i guess technically it's home. it'll get there i think. weird for now though ( Read more... )

do'h. who knows anymore, really. at least i have kind of come to terms with things are the way that they are. nothing i can do about it. if somethin' cool happens, awesome. until then. i shall be here, doin' my thing. my own thing. buh.

soooo tomorrow, but technically today i go to NY for my first (technically 2nd) lesson with Pedro Diaz. This is the first lesson with knowing that there will be more to work on. The first lesson as one of his students. yayyy, i really want something that says Juilliard on it. that would be bitchin'. anywho. im a little scared about goin' into ( Read more... )

IM MOVING IM MOVING IM MOVING IM MOVING HOLY SHIT im a little sad.