yay! bobby's coming home tonight. can't wait. i don't like talking to merrick during the day. he's always so distracted. i know that he has other things in his life, but i don't know. we had a big talk last night about how he's not as sweet anymore. and he thought i was breaking up with him. i don't know things are at a standstill right now. i don' ( Read more... )

i can't help but wonder who the person is who anonymously confessed feelings for me on a previous live journal. i know i have merrick, but u have to admit, it's really intriguing. i can't imagine who it could be. i only talk to like three guys on here. paul, horty and beaner. can't be horty and paul cause they both have told me and they don't use ( Read more... )

( Read more... )

Reply to this entry anonymously ( Read more... )

had a really great weekend. merrick and i hardly argued at all. we argue a lot. and i know it's usually because i overreact about everything, but i can't help it. i dig into things too deeply. paul thinks i'm controlling. he's probably right. but anyways, i spent friday at merricks. had an awesome time. saturday, was kind of a mess. for a while it ( Read more... )

"i came to represent and carve my name within your chest". sorry, i love that lyric

tear, nobody comments anymore. everybody only comments when i'm upset. tear

yeah, bobby and i are definitely going to celebrate tonight. i'm so happy. merrick's moving next weekend. he and i are writing a comic together. see, saturday, we were playing rummy(kicked his ass) and i got really sleepy and i fell asleep and he just got bored and drew a pic of me. i woke up like an hour later and he said that he thought i could ( Read more... )

i want to go to Full Sail. i want that college so badly. i'd only have to go for 13 months but it costs over 40,000 dollars. i want to go for graphic designing. i'd take merrick with me. it's in florida. god, i want that school so badly, but it's a trade school, so i can't hope for much scholarship money. tear.

(x) smoked a cigarette ( Read more... )