Ok so I suck. My life fell apart for a little while and now that I am somewhat back on track, hopefully I can become part of the living again

Ok so I had this fight with my mom last night. After she left to go to a play with a friend, I started cleaning. I dont like to clean when she is there because she treats me like her slave. She has a guilt trip because I am cleaning so she starts pretending like she is doing the same. Then she yells at me to help her because she is too tired so ( Read more... )

So I still need to get it all out. That is why I started this thing ( Read more... )

Journals are supposed to be places to bitch right? I can handle being poor and I can handle being hoemless and carless. What I cant handle is people bitching about how bad their life is when they are not willing to put in the effort to change it. I work for a Real Estate office so everyone around me is commission only. We have Agents that wont ( Read more... )

Yehhhh!!!! I got my new laptop today and it is loaded with stuff. I was like a kid at christmas. Only thing is I cant use it yet. I want to be able to hook it up at work for all the graphics stuff I got but we are on a network and I need to be on the same operating system. My boss is a computer nerd and could have been an IT person in a ( Read more... )

Ok So I started back to school today. I am taking classes online. Because of my home situation, it has been difficult to take my classes. I decided to take a leave of absence so my counselor said I could take off until May. Then she called me back about 3 weeks later and said that she had made a mistake and I needed to take atleast one more ( Read more... )

Distructive things I did were Smoking, Doing Drugs and in Junior High I got caught with a half drank bottle of wine in my back pack. This only angered my mom more. She couldnt see that I needed help, she just kept yelling at me and putting me down. My grades were getting worse and Freshman Year a teacher that I would sometimes talk to requested ( Read more... )

So Here is my mom with a 9 month old, no job because my father didnt want her working and no High School deploma. Because he was in the military and she didnt have money for a good lawyer, the judge sidded for my father and gave my mom no spousal support and only $150 in child support a month. She was so put off by men at that point, she never ( Read more... )

I think most people start a journal because of something that happen to them and they need a place to write it down. A place to keep it straight. I know it works because over the years I have written several letters to people that angered me and never sent them. Once it was on paper I felt better. Unfortunatly I hate to write. My spelling and ( Read more... )