Chad came honme yesterday, I don't know I was happy to see him I missed him but for some reason when we had sex I didn't enjoy it as much as I thought I would...like the last time I had sex was the last time we had sex almost two weeks ago ususally that makes it better but it didn't feel the best.  *sigh*  I know people probably don't want to hear ( Read more... )

On friday when Pat and I were having our conversations he said something about going into a relationship whole-heartedly and giving it my all, and I was thinking about someone and that I would have to do that and I was like so what you're saying is I should go into a realtionship and just lay myself bare and he was like I don't think you're ready ( Read more... )

Well last night Jeremey was going to come over and I already knew what was going to happen, he was going to try and get me to have sex with him again, same thing he did wednesday night, same thing he did thursday night.  So one of the things that Pat and I talked about was not to put myself into temptation's way.  SO I called ashley over and he got ( Read more... )

was letting the dog and and when I came back Ryan and mine's song was playing on the player...bastard stya out of my thoughts!

So pat came over, we always have fun and he brought me subway...but he didn't bring it in. He went into my room and grabbed the pillows from my bed, looked at me smiled (oh god I melted at his smile) told me lets go and walked out the door. So I grabbed my purse and followed him out the door. I figured we might go down to the beach and eat our ( Read more... )

SO my mom has been gone since wednesday. Jeremy and I hung out all Wednesday night and then Thursday, he had band practise so he said we could hang ut later in the night which was fine but then I realized that I didn't want to be alone so I kept thinking of people I could hang out with and I ended up hanging out with pat who I haven't seen in ( Read more... )

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What's worse is this is exactly how I feel about Nick ( Read more... )

Well I ended up hanging out with Jeremy last night and it was really fun. It was akward at first and I thought maybe he feels weird because I'm so young? Maybe he didn't mean to kiss me on saturday? I don't we had these really good long conversations, it was definately a nice change. Then I mentioned to him that he hadn't even kissed me or ( Read more... )

Saturday I went to see the saw. It was alright, it wasn't the best but oh well. Saturday Night Two Heded Chan played at the Landmark and ashley was feeling ok so we went. It was a crazy night. Bret said that he was coming to see her and he brought his ex girlfriend Angie so that really made her upset and Nick was there and he hardly talked to ( Read more... )