Is all I want to be loved?

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I'm so sick of it! Dating. it's not a commitment. it's seeing multiple people, that's what I'm doing and everyone at school thinks it's wrong. Yesterday Kristen, Colleen, Manda, and I were all standing in line for the Halloween parade and I saw Mike Graff, he's really hot so I pointed and did my little wanty thing. Kristen jumped on me and was ( Read more... )

I hate thinking I hate the stupid ignorant thoughts that go through my brain! I'm am so tired of everything that's been going on lately. I hate the boys I've been seeing, both bar and party, I hate the way I've been acting lately, the things I've been saying. It's all pissing me off! It's building up, I can feel it. Every little thing that ( Read more... )

I wonder why life is "so Good" it isn't. Life sucks lately. I'm in one of those moods that I just can't seem to get out of. My friends have been really weird lately. Guys are pissing me off, family is pissing me off, the holidays are coming and I HATE family get togethers. I seriously just want to get out of here. I hate this town I just ( Read more... )

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I know I am a highly sexual person and I know people are going to doubt that I can do this and I'm sure there will be times when I myself doubt my abilities so laugh if you want but people also didn't think I would stay with chad as long as I did. I can stay commited to something. Everywhere I look people are always saying how pretty I am and yadda ( Read more... )

Tonight I saw myself. I was watching ashley get gas and I saw myself spend three dollars and fifty sense on gasoline and then pouring it on myself and setting myself aflame. The funny thing is, i didn't find it disturbing. Am I falling? Am I going under yet again? I couldn't help but cry when I thought of chad with another woman. Rich noticed ( Read more... )

I feel like I don't even know you anymore. You are a stranger even to me. Am I not a part of your life any longer? Do I not exist to you? Am I not real to you? I don't belong anywhere to anyone, any longer. My heart and my eyes weep for that ( Read more... )

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