the night paints what I'll be doing/ against leaves dark with rain [rolled down hills into trees]/ routinely folding paper waterbombs, an origami lifeform/ disjointed from spirit, trying to connect again/ lying in wet grass/ my hair grows out faded strawberry/ but I can feel it in the wind

wind that runs in water through my skin/ when I am awake/ ( Read more... )

where are you?
[I can't seem to get anything right]

http://www.cbc.ca/news/canadavotes/     Very suspious of the north and Alberta- brainwashed?   I voted at home, in a church... it was in the hall of the church where they had the polls, and I remember it being much bigger...  or maybe i was just smaller at the time- and in Sparks/Brownies.

so anyone wanna move to England yet?  anyone in Canada?   ( Read more... )

I feel stupid- and that is all.  Seriously ( Read more... )

I've been getting my confidence back.  But it's come at the cost of a big mouth.  I need to shut up, but I don't ever want to go back to that... All my walls broke down, and now the rubble is in my way... build new walls, or ground them to dust?  I don't think I have the strength/courage to do either.  I need to focus on something else...

I keep ( Read more... )

To: ___ ( Read more... )

[It is impossible to say anything without someone taking it the wrong way.   It is even more impossible to become someone who is completely neutral.  Although... some think they can.  I want to know who you are, how you compare to your written words, why you're like that.  I want to pick apart the puzzle ( Read more... )

a monotone, a face that keeps thoughts in, a dangerous line to tread

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I'm still tired... there isn't enough energy to do anything today.  Falling asleep in the stacks would be interesting, but not the best idea.  I would like to have everything done before friday though... make that October...  I need more time to get this out of my head.  To be myself again.

how can I say what I want to say without worrying about being taken the wrong way?  how can I feel so... 
inadequate
and unable to find the right words that will help?  I want to hear your voice but... the reality of it is, I can't bring myself to.  I know my words wouldn't do any justice... and neither would my emotions.  It's as if I'm too far ( Read more... )