Happy new year.... 2010... weirdness... i cant believe it arrived. This year has gone by way too fast.

Im doing good. Im being responsible, going to school, keeping my grades up, and working. Im not taking any drugs. Nothing at all. I'm not even smoking weed. I started working out on Sunday. Im going to have the perfect body for the summer... thats the plan. And no cheating either. Im just going to eat extremely healthy and work out like crazy. It's ( Read more... )

I feel insane today. Ive spent the last three weeks taking klonopins everyday. Today I wasn't gunna take one, but that didnt work out too well. i started having a bad day so i took one. it didnt help though. i just took two more. Thats the last of them. Im not gunna take them for a while now. I love them because they make me feel wicked happy and ( Read more... )

Alright so college is kickass. I like it alot. There is work to be done, but it's easy. It just can be time consuming so I gotta have a schedule for when I'm gunna do everything. Like I always do. Guess what I've been running 4 miles. I slacked off yesterday and today though, but im definitly gunna tomorrow. I thought 4 miles would be hard but its ( Read more... )

So I started college and i like it alot. Its pretty fuckin chill. Im getting sick of being fat though... i dont feel like waiting for a flat stomach. I've decided to step it up and eat two small meals a day, one coffee, and the rest water. at least ill be eating. I really need to loose weight, im just sick of not having a flat stomach like a used ( Read more... )

So i came to the conclusion that I hate coke and im never doing it again. That was 2-3 weeks ago. Now when people mention it i cringe. When they mention it i dont want to do it, and i just tell them to shut the fuck up hahaha. I had a great weekend. I brought chrissy camping with me. We went and stayed at my parents camp site at the campground " ( Read more... )

Im doing really well for myself. I've been running a mile and a half, 5 days straight a week for almost a month now. I take the weekend off because its good for your body to have a break. I weighed myself for the first time in months yesterday. I hadnt weighed myself before i started running and i thought i would weigh waaaay less then what i saw ( Read more... )

Its been raining for a long time now. I feel like its been raining since the end of july. Shitty. I'm hoping wednesday is nice because its my day off and i want to go to the beach. My tan is starting to fade. saaaad. I just smoked some weeds and im suddenly wiiicked tired. i feel like that was pretty pointless now haha. i hate being tired. Ugggh. ( Read more... )

Yesterday I drove an hour and a half away to Keene, New Hampsire to stay over Emily's. Emily and I met on myspace and a couple of weeks ago met up in Manchester and had a really good time. So I stayed over her house last night. Shes bi and we both want each other but I decided that i want to take things slow because we just met. Neither of us has ( Read more... )

Talked to my brother Dan earlier today. He told me that the summer is boring for him too, and that it has always been a chance to relax and find himself. That's a good way to look at it because I feel like I am finding myself. The past month has been rough all alone. I didn't quite understand the lonliness because I've been around people my whole ( Read more... )