I'm going to make my journal friends only because it makes me feel better.  So, if you want to read my entries, become my friend and I will become yours!  I want people to read them that I don't know to give opinions and advice.  

I kinda want to hate my friends.  I want to be angry and ignore them and say I don't want to hang out this weekend because last weekend was so fucking miserable.  But then they are my friends, and I want friends, don't I?  I am fucking 13.  Except I am 26.  Damn.  I'm living a life that isn't my own, that isn't what I imagined, but its like I can't ( Read more... )

One Christmas Eve I found myself in Zacatecas, Mexico, with the understanding that markets and restaurants may be closed on Christmas.  I asked the owner of my hostel where to find groceries, anticipating a desperate situation, and he sent me to a local Christmas Market set up in one section of the city that was supposed to have food.  Instead, I ( Read more... )

The reason I have not yet put stickers on my new Nalgene bottle is because I haven't decided whether, when I do cover it with the stickers I've already bought, I'll put the rainbow stickers on it or not.  I carry it with me everywhere.  I have a new-ish job.  I want my co-workers to know I'm gay and don't want to actually be the one to tell them, ( Read more... )

There was once a time when I was a born-again Christian.  The other day I overheard my friends having a born-again Christian worship celebration, perhaps the first I had heard of it in years.  Singing, is what I mean, by worship, singing worship songs, enthusiastic and pretty charismatic worship songs.   While my friends debated over the words of ( Read more... )

I've been considering doing this lately, this being creating an anonymous LJ, rather than the one all of my friends have. I find myself unable to write what I am really thinking to people who I actually know well but who I am actually very different than.  I'm not writing well tonight.  I'm very tired.  Blah.  Anyways, if you come upon my page, be ( Read more... )