Went to my first aerobics class today. I didn't realize what a workout those things are ( Read more... )

So, I'm back home on break and things have been going well. I got a gym pass that's good for 20 visits at the local community center and I set up an appointment with one of the personal trainers to figure out an effective strength training routine. I learned in the past couple months that I really DO like working out--it feels great. It's just ( Read more... )

I'm starting this thing up again because my problems haven't stopped. Still binging. Still gaining. And it's frustrating the hell out of me. WHY CAN'T I STOP THIS? I'm a smart, determined individual, but I have this habit that is killing me and I'm not stopping it. Not can't. Because of course I COULD. But won't ( Read more... )

I decided that, just for today, I would have my cake and eat it too. I would eat what I want without regret, as long as it was within reason and I didn't binge. So, if I wanted to go out at lunch and buy a pastry, I would, but I would not buy a pastry...and a huge cookie...and a brownie. And most of what I ate today was healthy, anyways. Dinner was ( Read more... )

You guys are so sweet. I think livejournal is the reason why I am so much more motivated this time around, and I think I will FINALLY lose weight, keep it off, and kick COE's ass out the door. Your comments and support not only help keep me going, but also make me realize there are other people out there who can relate to what I'm going to ( Read more... )

Yesterday I woke up deliriously happy. I don't know why. Maybe I was excited that I had gone for a FULL WEEK without bingeing, and I was absolutely not going to binge that day. Maybe I was happy because I have lost 3 lbs. Yeah, you heard me right, 3 lbs! In one week! Mostly water weight, I presume, but it's still an improvement. And it makes me ( Read more... )

So, lots of random little things get plugged together in this post.

First of all, I've decided that I didn't binge yesterday. Which in a way is empowering--it shows me that I can overeat without bingeing. Which is a good thing to remember. One extra cookie (why do I always use cookies as an example?) is not a reason to throw off the rest of my ( Read more... )

Wow, today made me realize how very much my cravings are tied to my emotions. Since my last post, my frenzy-inducing craving for sweets disappeared. I feel...normal. A little guilty about how much I ate today, but not hungry and not wanting to eat more. And, of course, I'm no longer bored or stressed or anxious. Huh ( Read more... )

Today I crave anything sweet. Savory foods hold no appeal. I just want sugar and anything that contains it. Why? What does the craving for sugar in particular symbolize? What sweet thing is missing from my life ( Read more... )

I forgot to write down what exercise I got yesterday. I did my 10-minute morning jog, plus 1 1/2 hours of martial arts, mainly doing forms. This morning I did my 10-min jog again, plus I'm adding one set of my MA stances into the morning mix, because my teacher yesterday inspired me to improve them (more on that later). In case you don't know, ( Read more... )