Well ive been out of basic for a while now.. it was pathetic.. the only thing hard about it was being away from melissa... thats it.. and now im in arizona... even farther away... i get to visit everyonce in a while.. sucks.. cause.. well yeah not only do love melissa so much... i have put alot of faith in her.. and because i love her so much my ( Read more... )

welp.. now its 13 days... and i leave on friday morning to go to jersy with melissa and my family... but today she leaves for western for some kinda field trip thingy... which is cool.. cause it gives me time to visit my uncle n stuff... gives me time to pack and think n what not... so thats cool.. shes comen over b4 she leaves for like.. half hour ( Read more... )

Well... i have now 14 days... 2 weeks exactly... and im still clueless on certain things that i shouldnt be clueless about... im clueless about what melissa is feeling... we've spent a whole lot of time together... but im just so confused right now... i hate this feeling... i hate thinking.. im goen to leave and shes goen to move on and ill have ( Read more... )

well... saturday was a really bad day.. for melissa... and me aswell... so.. out of the blue i bought her a dozen roses... cause i wanted too.. no reason.. just because i could... anyway brought it to her after work and she was very happy... met her in the parking lot with it... her smile was all i needed :-) anyway the next day.. sunday she was ( Read more... )

Its funny how life works... i really dont know whats goen on right now... im happy... infact really happy... hung out with melissa last night... and went to the movies with her the night before... idano but i think... i think everythings goen to be okay... i mean we aint together or anything.... i still love this girl to death... prolly will for ( Read more... )

well... we are over now... i just cant win lol... but... i aint sweating it forreal... i shouldnt.. i couldnt of expected her to just love me like i did her with the time we had... but thats okay... i guess im quick with the feelings... nothing i can do about that... doesnt matter though... even if i didnt love her we would still be over sooo... ( Read more... )

I told her i loved her... shes the first one that i have came out n said it to and actually meant it.. i didnt have to say it back cause i felt bad or i was presured into it.. i said it cause i meant it truely... it wasnt to presure her or to persuade... just to inform... but now... its over... i loved her.. gave her my love.. gave her everything ( Read more... )

Ive had alot of stuff on my mind lately... its hard to talk about most of them... cause the result to could to something i really dont want to happen so.. ive been keepin most of it bottled up for now... ill let it out when its important... when it needs to be let out... its killen me though so i hope the time comes soon... cause the hurt if i dont ( Read more... )

Sleeping in innocent anticipation ( Read more... )

Hmm.. ive had a odd week but thats okay... im in a kinda perdicument but... things will end well.. if one has faith and one wants it bad enough... im begining to have more faith.. and trust me i want it bad enough... just gata be patient ;)