I had a moment last weekend... I was in Wenatchee for my Aunt's renewal ceremony. It was beautiful and fun and full of family. But thats not what I want to talk about. It was the next day when we went to church. Its the first time in a while and I was surrounded by family. Aunts and Uncles and Mom and Dad and Ian and cousins. My Aunt goes to a big ( Read more... )

Its very rarely now that I have need of this little journal... but on nights like this I am glad it exists. Life has been so good, so busy, so strange lately, that I haven't had much time for thoughts I guess, but the last two nights I have been having trouble sleeping and its left plenty of time for thought, and most of it ones I would rather not ( Read more... )

Merry Christmas!! Sorry I wasn't there... no real good excuse, but I was with my boy and his family. Hope you all had a good time and I am sure I will be seeing you all soon...or again depending :-) love ya all...

Trista

frustrated... I want a car so bad, I am sick of not having one, sick of relying on others, sick of being stuck, sick of it. I have money now, not much, but I am willing to spend it on a car so of course I can't find one. And it doesn't help that I am super shy and hate talking on the phone, so each call is literally painful and each time they tell ( Read more... )

there I said it, I haven't even been home a full day yet and I miss it. It is kinda home, and I think I am missing it more because I know I will be done with it soon. And this quarter has been rough, but so great at the same time. I am excited to be home and see family and friends...but I miss Ellensburg. I miss the people, the music, the building ( Read more... )

Wow, I never realized how close to grown up and independent I am 'till this latest trip home. Don't get me wrong here I love my family and for a part of me this will always be home. But now... especially with my apartment I've worked out my own schedule and my own way of doing things and my own standards. I've been home a little over 24 hours and I ( Read more... )

I really dislike game systems, video games, computer games, everything like that.

Last night I had the strangest dream... it was really moving for some reason though and I feel like I need to share it ( Read more... )

Its funny how you can have such a good time with friends and talk to people you know and care about and then come home and still feel so lonely. I am so lonely at this moment. Its hard knowing that there is this person I love that I can't be with anymore. And its even harder knowing hes hurting so much and I am the cause. But I know what I am doing ( Read more... )

Oh God I think its over... and my heart is breaking and there is no one to talk too... I feel so alone. I hope I am making the right decision.