Another year has almost passed by, another year without the brother and the family I used to know, has my real family just come to the point where I don't need to be around? Just because he isn't there protecting me like he used to, nither of my brothers are for that fact, I should be used to having a Christmas alone like this but every year it ( Read more... )

Does this circle ever end? Or does it end when all I am in complete misery and depression. I dont want to her about her EVER! I don't want to hear how you haven't felt the way you are in a long time, do you even think when you open your mouth and how much that hurts to hear to me? Do you even remember that that box you're using for that necklace to ( Read more... )

So apparently Im really lazy, I tried keeping a journal to write all this crap in my head down but I didn't like writing for so long when I type so much faster. Anyway yea I don't know if anyone even reads this random crap anymore, but whateva. Ok now that I got that out of the way onto the shit in my head ( Read more... )

Every thought that's rushed by my head makes it that much harder to pretend. Pretend this fake emotion where everyone thinks I'm really ok. I'm not sure how much longer I can keep deceiving people about how I am. So many memories I thought I had locked away, erased, made them vanish, they all decided to come back and all in one night. Nothing I ( Read more... )

I know I can't tell you the truth behind whats really going on, I know I can't tell you cause I don't want you to worry, sometimes I just want you to leave me behind and then I talk to you which makes that feeling vanish. I guess this all happened because I couldn't tell you anything, you told me 'don't think its your fault' I'm gonna call your ( Read more... )

What the hell is going on with me! Am I really that out of it because of thoughts that have been going on in my head? The thoughts of things I wish would happen but I know never will. Lately I've missed my brother more then ever, I don't know what started it but now every where I turn its like I can see him standing there with that stupid mug smile ( Read more... )

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How do you change everything you are? How do you change everything you've ever been? You hate who you are and yet you can't seem to change anything about yourself. Lately this seems to be the probably I deal with, I try to change myself only to have it backfire in my face. I know Im a bitch, I know there are days where everyone just wants to beat ( Read more... )

So I just got my FIRST debit card Whoot. But Mom couldn't help to tell me the bit from Spider-man, ya know that With great power comes great responsibility., as well adding things such as "Now that you're more of an adult legally, people are going to expect more of you." Oh great I'm thinking, expect more of me like what? I already made people ( Read more... )

1. First thing you wash in the shower ( Read more... )