it's happening again. she feels as though she's stuck. stuck in a world that she doesnt want. she doesnt know what to do. she refers to herself in the third person. shutting out every one. she refers to herself like that because in her head she is not herself. this girl that she is, is not who she wants to be, this is a temporary body that she is ( Read more... )

i'm so sick of being here ( Read more... )

my dad got laid off ( Read more... )

i am a betraying bitch. i dont know why i get involved. i dont know how it happend i want to keep all of my friends, i want them to all be wonderful and safe and i dont want them to fight. why cant we all just get along. why cant everyone stop and think about what they are doing before they do it. why must latex be so fragile. and why are all so ( Read more... )

i am so bored so so so so so so so so so so so bored. ive got nothing to do im at my grandmas house waiting for my dad and grandpa to come home so that we can eat dinner and then leave at 2 am so i can go to colorado and have fun. this week has been pretty ok, i got here i think on thursday but im not sure i havent been keeping track of days then i ( Read more... )

so as many may know when i drink i need something to play with. my good friend nick invited me over last night to teach me drinking games, which btw im really bad at, anyway cops come break up the party, im thinking that this is a sign that i shouldnt be drinking or partaking in illegal activities anymore, but yes i am proud to say i was eloquent ( ( Read more... )

im watching fuse right now and the angels and airwaves video is on, i cant help to think that tom has pussied out. i love blink 182 oh so much they have brought so much joy to my life since before i can remeber, and now the boy who once shoutted "i wanna fuck a dog in the ass" is now flailing about and whining, " i cannot live i cannot breath until ( Read more... )

MOney

plane ticket
gas
food
hotel/ campsite

(Fun stuff- souviniers????)

FOOD ( Read more... )

i almost got a 16 candles day today but it woulda been worse. you see my family ditched me this morning so i was all alone then they came back. i got lots of fun stuff and alot of money for my road trip. im very excited for that. but then i was hungry so i wanted to go and get lunch with my friends but nobody wanted to go. i called cass and joey ( Read more... )