i dont remember the last time i have cried at school. but for so much i wanted to let out in tears im proud i held so much of it in. school just isnt the place to break down.

i had a horrible day at school. the only times i was happy was when i was playing soccer and had my mind off of evrything. i love soccer and friends.

Ive only been speechless a very few times... FEW. so many things i wanted to say... i was so close to saying them, but they just never came out. things that so needed to be said. i wanna just hide in them and not tell... but then again i need to tell, it should be known. well i guess if its wanted and important enough it will end up coming out. for ( Read more... )

Im tired alot... alot. i get sleep too. maybe i just need something to wake me up.. like something exciting ( Read more... )

The song im listening to is awesome... just awesome ( Read more... )

im lost in a million types of happiness.
im lost in a million types of sadness.
im lost in a million types of love.

find me.

ive been so lazy, didnt wanna take the time to update my journal. so i read other peoples this weekend. its so hard to check up on evryones journal, specialy when they write long ones and more than one a day... but anyways ( Read more... )

Soccer was .. umm... wierd. well we scrimmaged, which went "ok". our team could use some help. but there was only 11 of us there, so wasnt the whole team.an i scpred with my left, YAY! nice shot too, hehe. but there was this kid watching(one of the girls friends, looked maybe 8th or 9th grade). well he kept staring at me and smiling and blowing ( Read more... )

well today went pretty good. my classes are ordered boring to most interesting, so that kinda makes the day go a lil faster. I like seeing so many people each day. since im 10th now i know people from last year and the new freshman, a whole lot more than i knew the beginning of last year, much more enjoyable ( Read more... )

Today was "ok". my classes equal out to be "ok". some are gonna be very dull and some may get to be very fun, but ill live through them. saw alot of 9th graders that i knew, hope it was a good day for them. i remember how excited i was. and i saw alot of other people i havent seen for a while. nice ( Read more... )

Ya.. my puter broke down the other day. it got all fucked up when i had all my soccer people over using it. it got some virus. so now i have no puter. i am at DK's with kc, akshay, kyle, sean, and gregory. i paid $3 to use the internet since i havent been able to get on at my house. so they are all playing something, i didnt wanna play, i only know ( Read more... )