Some stuff has happened that I'm not happy about. I kinda fucked up. Lately I've had a lot of anger in me from time to time. I've gotten stuff stuck in my head about Alyssa. I look at her sometimes and feel so much anger. Almost hate at the time. And I picture myself hitting her and watching her cry. It just gets stuck in my head and drives ( Read more... )

I'm over here at my mom's again with Alyssa. She didn't go to work today. Haha. She's gonna get fired. We got high again last night. Alyssa was fucking wired. We kept trying to call Katie but her phone was off or something. She needs to answer the phone. I feel like we're stalking her. :-! I've been off my Risperdal for two days now. I ( Read more... )

I don't have to look for a job anymore today! No I didn't get a job, but Alyssa and I are going to go to this telemarketing place my brother used to work at. It's called Converges or something. That would be a cool job. I already know what to expect so that would be cool. And I'm staying at my mom's for a bit longer. Amy's bored by herself ( Read more... )

My mom's computer is up so here I am. I wanted to talk to some peeps but they be idle. Or something heh. I went and applied at Hollywood Video. Hopefully they call me back. I went to Walgreens but they do they're shit on the internet. Now I can't access the website. Damn people. I'm so zoned out today. All yesterday Alyssa and I recovered ( Read more... )

Just wanted to give a quick update as to what is going on. I'm in Colorado now. Living with my girl and everything. Got here on Monday. Things have been great. I'm so damn happy. I've never felt so connected to anyone in my life and I'm grateful I have Alyssa to share in my happiness and all that corny shit. We're getting a phone tomorrow so ( Read more... )

My brother is a mini stock race car driver in Colorado. He's good. They're holding a 'best driver' poll on a website for all the racers. It's basically a popularity contest, and the winner gets a trophy after November 1. He's in second place right now. Please do our family a favor and vote for him! It would mean so much to us. Here's the ( Read more... )

I made this journal public again because I wanted people who were going through a rape crisis could read this and relate and perhaps help me out. I've gotten that help, I've added a new friend, and all is well again. Therefore this journal will now become friends only as my thoughts are no longer necessary for the entire public to see. If you ( Read more... )

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-The following are meds specificly for treating insomnia-
Benzos: Klonopin, Tranxene, ProSom, Ativan, Serax, Doral, Restoril, Halcion
Non Benzos: Atarax, Trazodone, Ambien

If I don't get one of these tomorrow, I'm going to be pissed. Bitches.

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