i did it to myself, it's what i thought i wanted. to dissapear. i cannot see life after 3o so i was trying to estimate the amount to smoke, the drugs to do, the speed at which to do them so that i would die before 3o.

i still can't picture myself after 3o. more secifically, i cannot picture myself happy after 3o. because i am not adult, i ( Read more... )

time fly's with people you love ( Read more... )

I feel like I get a second chance at life ( Read more... )

So, I bought a flowering bulb for a friend for christmas.  There is a new inventions that came with it:  Expandable dirt.  Just add 3 cups of water.  We are totally in the future.

( Spitting beer and water )

A chill just ran down my spine. As I was looking at the I Must Have myspace account and remenicing, I looked at the date on "Shake that American Ass". It's 2003. That was three years ago. I fucking hate time. It makes me feel like I havn't done anything compared to what I want to do. And I havn't. Fuck money. I need equiptment. I don't ( Read more... )

A Brass Monkey, unknown to me, is a real real good drink ( Read more... )

Ok. This is super honesty ( Read more... )

i want to be wasted until 2006. only 18 hours.

I need a cigarette...

The train to Portland leaves at nine thirty am.  That is sooooooooooooo early for me; I've been sleeping until 1:25pm every day and riding to work as fast as possible to make it there by 1:45pm.  I have been sleeping a lot.

( teeth )

"did you throw them in the river, Martha?" -me ( Read more... )