i am pissed right now (this might be long), earlier at work i was shaking, i was near exploding... tell a lie about me... oh well big deal... tell a lie about me to one of my friends... eh i can blow that off too... tell a lie to the only person ive had eyes for, for almost going on a year, a person i absolutely love, and a lie that makes me ( Read more... )

ill give you a clue... its not with family and friends... its work... yup! working christmas eve, ugh... im just glad christmas is almost here and work might get to calming down soon again...

big news right? im sure you all knew it... but my extremely hard work ethic is the second greatest source of joy in my life... knowing that anywhere i move to.. whatever i choose to do, i will be good at it... and if im not, i will work hard until i am, it gives me such great confidence in whatever i choose to do... its this weird feature that ( Read more... )

sometimes i just want to blow up from the inside... i know quite a few entries ago i said i was going to focus on becoming an emotionless blob... and i lied... but now i mean business... this bullshit is serving no purpose but to distract me from my ultimate goals and supreme happiness.... which i felt i would never sacrifice for anything... ( Read more... )

the weather at work was incredible today... perfect... i didnt require long sleeves or something covering my ears... and i didnt break a sweat... its looking like we might have maybe one more day of this before it gets cold again... but then its the day before christmas, and that is ok... im really looking forward to the holiday, some time ( Read more... )

last night was fantastic... ended up not seeing christmas lights, but i would have been far too rowdy for a walk anyway... i fried out and stared at some carpet... i really wish amanda and shane could have stuck around for a little bit longer, because i was pretty much polar opposites of the dudes that were there... they had some fantastic music ( Read more... )

im going crazy

1. What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before ( Read more... )

ok so this morning at work was probably the most emotional draining ive ever had... work was easy, noone at work gave me any flack, and mom cooked breakfast with no hog (normally woulda been a good day)... but i also found out before going into work that my over confident (well absolutely cocky) attitude may have just been doing damage, not just ( Read more... )

OK so i normally dont give gifts... but i was at the liquor store the other day and was checking out some deals... and i saw a good deal and i gave some baileys out as gifts... and it was fun, wish i didnt have to drive though ( Read more... )