How can I really go on just after being told that I don't matter and whatever I have done does not matter what so ever. I feel like the last ounce of any caring I had about anything in this world was just ripped out right from underneath me. Do I have to be a complete asshole to a woman and treat her like shit 90 percent of the time to get her to ( Read more... )

today is the day that my world is going to get totally shattered apart and that there is nothing I can do or say that will stop it. Oh the joy.

I am back here in Indiana Pa for the first time in about 4 years and wow. It's weird and well it doesn't suck yet but we all know it will at some point. The grass is always greener, blah, blah, fucking BLAH! I got a job working at Intermedia and I start this coming Monday and believe it or not it pays way better than fucking Xentel. God damn mother ( Read more... )

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Well its time for an update I guess. I am of course in Albuquerque and have been for a month. I am staying in a hotel until I can find my own place and I am yet again working for Xentel. Hardly anyone I knew before I left is here anymore but I guess thats ok. I will just make new friends. Until then I will just keep to myself and make some money. I ( Read more... )

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