Every hug you give is like adding a day to your life. Spread love and it'll come back to you. If you can imagine yourself dying right now would you be pleased with what you've done? Who you've loved? The things you own, the places you've been, the things you've learned, the lives you've touched? I think I'm getting to a better place in my life. ( Read more... )

This life will end sooner than you realize. Don't let it end before you accomplish everything you ever wanted to, because the only one standing between you and greatness is you. Afraid to run out of goals. Afraid of how great you might realize you are. Afraid to cry and let others see you cry. Afraid to open your heart for fear that you may see it' ( Read more... )

Emt courses coming up, then paramedic, then it's off to fighting fires for me. Alternitively, I graduate EMT, become an ambulance dispatcher at about $12 an hour to pay the bills, get stuck there for a few years and find out my asthma will keep me from being a firefighter. Alternatively, I could die ( Read more... )

And I think I’ve sown a big gay bean. SO we’re training this really cool new manager at Jamba Juice, and he and I get along really well. But if any of you know me you know that I’m kinda really open with my opinion of who’s hot; if a guy is hot I’ll say so. And maybe I have other little gay tendencies, but so what?! I like frenchin’ girls as much ( Read more... )

That last entry was just a piece of cr@p entry that I decided to throw on here just because I haven't posted anything in a while. But actually life is great. Work(s) are going well, kung-fu is going well, Dazel and I are doing well, and I think I'm starting to get back into the green with my green.

presents. You don't know how hard it is to make a mirror. People will not be shown what they don't want to see, and therefore turn a blind eye to your projections or reflections. These moments make me appreciate the others.

How can there be so much emotion floating around right now. So much personal worry. I'm worried for you first. I worry for them second. I worry for me last. If nothing else came out of my relationship with John I learned that worrying about yourself first is... selfish. "and that's the saddest way to live", Those words stuck with me. "Do all the ( Read more... )

Emotional surplus spills out through the only way it knows how to any more. I remember the days when the only way I knew how to handle this much emotion was punching things. HA. I've got a little bit of scar tissue to remind me not to do that anymore. Oh yeah, and the glasses I always have to wear. I think I've just never liked crying, even though ( Read more... )

This compy has been spied on by the internet. And also there is weird porn on it now... not the first time. Dad?
"The only thing that keeps me sane at the end of the day is that I've got you."

So this stupid situation between an ex-old friend and two more recent friends has dragged my girlfriend and myself into it. Now as things have been escalating I've been threatened and challenged to a fight. Not that I question whether I would win a fair fight, but do I really wanna hurt this guy who I've known for like 10 years? How childish is it ( Read more... )