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dead inside
I woke up this morning feeling dead inside. The man i envisioned myself marrying and creating a family with is not the one for me. It kills me how one could be so perfect yet so wrong for you. Many times I ask myself, is this the guy you want to spend the rest of your life with? A huge part of me truly wanted this to work, constantly telling me to ( Read more... ) -
it's time
It's time to end it. This relationship is going nowhere.. I always knew deep down but I always ignored the feeling. What a stupid thing to do right? Ignore your instincts? But yea.. Need to let go before time keeps wasting away.. I love him dearly but he just never changes. Keeps playing the same old game and I'm tired of it. My patience has run ( Read more... ) -
2 years later...
Was I always this dramatic about my love life? Being absent from LiveJournal for 2 years and seeing how I used to write has me reeling with memories and wows! I can't deny I feel like I was still a pretty good writer except for a few profanities here and there but I was 20ish around the time so who cares. But wow! Just looking back at those times ( Read more... ) -
endless patience
Everything is going well… too well I should say. I’ve been blessed over and over, for which I am grateful, but then again, I’ve been a good girl lately. Not my usual slut self looking for trouble, as usual. Which is why I’m getting a bit concerned… have I lost myself? Don’t get me wrong, I’m not some middle aged woman who is being self conscious ( Read more... ) -
Who
Who am I, who am I
With these dark brown eyes
Who am I, who am I
With these thick round thighs
Who am I, why am I
Stuck in this stage and mystery of life
Who am I, why should I
Care.
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me, myself, and I
Lost, confused, and burdened. Why do I feel this way for the ogre? Sure he’s a good person and he cares about me, but something just isn’t right. He could be a great boyfriend and give me all the things I need, but I don’t feel like he’s the one. We constantly fight; we’re always reading each other wrong; things don’t feel the way they should. ( Read more... ) -
gotta let you go..
its almost over.. i can feel it. as much as i don't want it to be over.. i know the end is near. I don't want to lose him forever.. he means so much to me even though i know he doesn't give a fuck about me. I just can't take this heartache anymore. I have to end this before it ruins our friendship. Maybe once these feelings have passed we can start ( Read more... ) -
i'm going crazy
Suspicion is literally driving me crazy. I can’t live in peace knowing that my sister went out somewhere tonight and I’m home without my man. She slept with my ex a long time ago and now I just can’t help but suspect that she’ll try to sleep with any current boyfriend I date. Has she and my man ever even met? No. And I’d like to keep it that way. I ( Read more... ) -
Writer's Block: Got the Munchies
sour cream & cheddar chips -
Writer's Block: Tough Choices
family; blood doesn't mean anything anymore, they'll be the first to stab you in the back. You can have my family, i'll take love and friendship any day