well its been a while since i wrote in here. lets get the full update on whats been going on ( Read more... )

to much is going on all at once and i'm about to have a breakdown. i miss my dad, i miss monica, christmas is coming up, i miss ben, i can't decide what i want in life witht he exception of one thing. i know who i want to be with but i don't know if he wants to be with me. i'm just struggling with some things and just taking one day at a time. in

2 years ago today was the day my son was concieved. it was not a planned thing at all ( Read more... )

well my computer is being a pain in the butt and won't let me update half the time. but of coarse if holt trys to get it to work it will.... blah ( Read more... )

its been a great couple of days out at tripper's house. having fun just hanging out and i got to ride in the skyline tonight and tomorrow he's gonna teach me to drive it. i'm gonna be in heaven. its my absolute dream car. i would love to have one some day and i hope that i can work towards it. i'm hoping that i can work on my car right now and i'm ( Read more... )

love is so funny. i gave my heart away and he still has it. just a simple hug tonight brought alot of feelings back that i have tried to put out of my mind. but i'm to the point that i don't know how to get through a day without him anymore. and the thought of moving makes this so much harder. i love everything about him. his sweet smile tight hugs ( Read more... )

well i met a guy named jason and he's pretty cool. he's got a temper and he shows it. its cool and fun between me and jason when we're alone but when we get around everybody else he acts kinda different so i'm gonna let this one go cause i don't have time for the bulls ( Read more... )

today has been a good day. i spent a couple of hours with holt and it was really good. we hung out like we used to. i miss him a lot. we talked and ate dinner from carabbas. it was just an all around good time. not much else to say. i'm still tired from the drive home yesterday but otgerwise i'm doing good.

well i'm home again ( Read more... )

random thoughts from the day ( Read more... )