i leave for star in the morning ( Read more... )

i've been having really weird dreams since i got home from enfield. The last person who died whom i was close with was my great gramma. my sophomore year of high school. It's been about a month. maybe a little less. i'm also aware that it's going to take time to come to terms with what happened, but i've been having flashbacks of different ( Read more... )

To the women whom I lived next to for 19 years. You touched my heart at a very early age and I could never forget the countless memories. You will be forever in my heart. RIP.

words cannot express how sad i feel and how much i will truly miss her. wednesdays will never be the same.

you know when something just feels right? not even that i suppose, but the feeling that something that is, or could be so right, is right there in front of you...being dangled on a string, barely out of reach. my hands start to tingle when this happens. everytime. it just hasn't happened in a while ( Read more... )

I don't really mind being sick again.. It's just that I know that most people who would happen to get strain of whatever cold I have, wouldn't get sick from it. Damn my immune system for sucking soo bad at it's job ( Read more... )

things i miss ( Read more... )

it's kind of a sad situation but it's not over. just not what i was wishing it to become. i don't know what i'm actually trying to say but yea ( Read more... )

ok so i don't really think anything is wrong with me i just don't get it. I mean i liked someone a LOT last week. a LOT a lot.. at least I thought I did. Either I was wrong or this new person just blows them out of the water. Maybe that's it but it makes me a little nervous. I mean I met him monday. Thats less than a week at this point. Ok, ( Read more... )

so i don't really know how long its been since i talked to ryan. a while really. like actually had a conversation with him. i miss having that one person who would call me on my bull shit. there are people that are around me that occasionally do it but most people don't know me well enough to even take some of the things that i say or do as shit.. ( Read more... )

i feel empty. and im scared he's the only one who could fix that. but i guess thats a lie. im the only one who can fix that.

i was fine until i realized how he made me feel....