okay. watching this malcolm in the middle episode, "kitty's back," is making me feel better-- a little more real and normal. reese is trying to peel off all of his skin in one piece. oh god, it's making me weak, but it's making me laugh.

i spent a good amount of time sitting in my backyard, smoking cigarettes and deciding which songs i wanted to listen to while smoking each cigarette. i had about 10, i think. pretty bad. but i liked the feeling i was having. at one point, i wanted to go inside to put on a sweater. but when i tried opening the door, it was locked. dotty had ( Read more... )

i've been having dreams, lately. i don't usually dream this often ( Read more... )

i remember linking my finger with his and thinking nothing about it. i was so bold at 15.

?neeb ti sah ngol woh
.slleps gnipeew ,kcab emoclew

sub eht no deirc i. enalp eht no deirc i. moorhtab eht ni deirc i. emoh ym regnol on s'taht esuoh dlo ym ot ereh edir eht no deirc i.

i can't take you.

i just realized that i don't daydream, anymore.

--------------: whenever i tell people that i'm moving back to olympia they ask me if i'm moving back there because of you. i mean, people that i talk to regularly and know what's going on with my life
--------------: it makes me feel kind of lame though
yeahletshope: oh, i don't think you are lame. you're not moving here for me, though. or are you ( Read more... )

i tried to get out, but i couldn't. i'm probably not going to sleep, tonight. i can feel it.

outside, a storm is brewing. it sounds like boiling water. and now, a drum circle.

i just want someone i want to impress.

nothing

evaluations are over. my first quarter at evergreen is over. i can do things, now ( Read more... )