I found my first live journal from when I was 14. Cringeworthy haha. I was such a dick, I should have been beat up a few times. Emily and I bought a house a few months ago. Big things. I've found myself at a few crossroads with my career. Mostly over wanting more opportunities to learn and continue to build on what I know. There's a kid at work who ( Read more... )

Don't sweat the technique. I got married a year ago. I fostered an amazing pitbull named Tank that had his front leg amputated. He lives with a friend now but I wish we could have kept him. All part of the game and the hand we got dealt. That's okay. Got promoted at work about a year ago to full diesel tech. I'm slowly learning a thing or two. I ( Read more... )

life's always a trip! engaged to an awesome woman. someone on my level who doesn't make me question anything. unbelievable. i left the rail yard and am now an assistant diesel mechanic. so far so good, very challenging and rewarding. Avon is good. I stole the neighbor's dog the other day because they were neglecting him. he stayed with us for a few ( Read more... )

Until the next episode...hopefully years from now

I don't know how to describe that feeling. I'm not worried about it right now, but it's scary. Why though? I can brush it off for now. I can brush a lot of things off for now. No need to worry myself over fantasies. I handled that last one pretty well. Moments like that are like the culmination of all the stuff I went through. But its been six ( Read more... )

So am I angry or what? Or are my feelings for you changing? I'm handling this transition pretty well I think. I do a good job of being to the point when you contact me. I guess just the way I've been feeling lately has me feeling a little weird. Why even waste time thinking about things that don't matter? No need to be anxious, no need to worry ( Read more... )

The walls were closing in and now I finally have my out. I never thought it would happen. I just have to make it for about 3 more weeks and I'm done with this chapter of my life. You can live your life and I can live mine. Wow. This is the hardest shit I've ever gone through. My heart has hardened and I've built a very high wall around it. I can't ( Read more... )

Unfortunately I'm still in Raleigh. The year is coming to an end and I don't know how I survived but I did. Still working things out, still got a lot going on in my head. I've met 2 great people recently, well, I met one and got to know someone who I've known for awhile a little better. I guess I can go out on a better note than I thought I would. ( Read more... )

Life is a trip. I was forced to let Mallory go once and for all. It hasn't been easy but I feel like I was bracing myself for it for awhile. I know I did all that I could, I did more than I should, but I did it all because I loved her and felt that it was all worth it. I'm working on moving back to Charlotte for good. It's been stressful. I've been ( Read more... )

Well I worked really hard on myself and definitely am where I didn't want to be. A lot of things happened and I definitely was not myself, or at least was made to not be, for a few months. I never want to experience that again. I have every right to be emotional but some of the ways I felt, thought, even acted, I don't want to go through ever again ( Read more... )