incredable depressed. i dont even have friends on this stupid site anymore.

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So I Suck At This Whole Moving On Thing.......

8:30 am. get up, look at clock. roll over. lay there for a while. think. snooze. wake up again. 10 am. roll out of bed. stumble over shit on floor. go to bathroom. shower. pick out clothes. get dressed. fill out depostie slips. count money. wash dishes. make breakfast. switch laundry. eat while watching ( Read more... )

it raining and gloomy

most people would say its a nasty day,
but looking outside i see a beautiful day
everything looks so green, so alive.
all the color is a little richer.
these day are needed or life would starve

i dunno, how to say what im trying to say

despite popular belief,
confusing, mind screwing behavior is not cool.

Its like, every time you see him, you just look at him, and you want him sooo bad. you want nothing more than to be with him, to be close to him, to feel him again. And some days he looks back at you, and you know he feels the same, you just feel it. And other days, he looks at ( Read more... )

my lap top broke......

so i dont have it

it was the only thing i had to curl up to at night ... lol

sad, but true.

so, now i cant keep up with all this online stuff......
but i guess thats alright,
this journal is helping less and less anyway....
im becoming unhealthy again

and i hate it

So, i've determined i am bad at meeting new people or something. do i come off bitchy or stupid or inmature or something? I meet new people, and i guess i goes ok while we are hangin out the initial time, or i think we have a lot of fun, but then they're never interested in hanging out with me again ( Read more... )

i just want someone to love me for being me

i dont try to be anyone else
i may not like the way i look, but
i love being me
i just wish there was someone who wanted to know who i am

 DoWn wiTh
             PaNTs!!!!

picking up the pieces

i just need a little help........

whenever anyone needs help i go running, ......

...... when i cry for help, i hear crickets.

i just want someone to lean on, but that would require i be standing first wouldnt it? then i guess i just need someone ot hold me, and at this particular moment, it could be almost anyone