i think i have to quit school.
someone please give me money.

this is pretty old, and not very good, but i figure maybe it'll get me back into writing.

I never wanted to be this kind of girl.

The kind who runs out of things to say.

The kind who can’t say exactly what she means.
But here i am, scrambling for an explaination.

I never wanted you to change.

Never even thought it.

Because the truth is,

You can’t make ( Read more... )

today i learned what my family really thinks of me.  I can still hear them talking about me through the floor and the walls.

thanks a lot.

Last night I had a dream that Jurassic Park happened in New York City.  A friend (i don't know who she was) invited me over to her apartment to watch the MOVIE and when I got there, I asked another friend what part they were at, and then a T-Rex stuck his head in the window and roared.  I hid under a table screaming "Shit! I wanted to get here ( Read more... )

the sun is coming up.
i feel like i'm at summer camp.
i'll miss this, and when i finally cry
it's going to be awful.

i just had my last class of freshman year, and my last class at elizabethtown college. i'm really not sure how to feel about it.  i mean, i know that this place is wrong for me and i need to be somewhere i'll feel creative, but in the last couple of days i've actually started to like it here. how fucked up is that? i choose to come around when all ( Read more... )

i am swollen.
my wrist, my back, my head.

i woke up this morning with 
a patch of dried blood in my hair.

my belongings are jumbled
and it's starting to upset me.

i need to pack.

people don't die, 
they go to the yukon.

i never sleep anymore ( Read more... )

i have become so empty.

i wish my parent had named me something interesting 
(instead of the most popular girls name of 1989-90).
i wish i wasn't packing up my room.
i wish i had better family ties.
i wish i was seven years old. 
i wish we still grew corn in the backyard.
i wish i didn't know what i would be missing out on.

Hello, My Name Is: ungrateful.