wow! God is good.

I hope to never forget, "The Night We Stalked Paul Eastman"...

things have been so unbelievably different lately. 
financially, i'm self-supporting, now.
i have a copy of my first lease...ever.  kinda a big deal
i guess i've been using this as my dialogue for my relationship w/ the boy.  FINALLy a friendship has been reinstated and finally i'm over it.  i was introduced to his g/f the other day and as awkward as ( Read more... )

Last night I slept in a bed of tears
But I woke up a better man
There's a space in between
Who you want and who I am
And someday baby we'll both understand
Now I could tell you that
You'll be all right
I could hold you
And keep lying

One way is holding on
One way is being strong
There's two ways to say goodbye
Your tears are made of pride
My tears ( Read more... )

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And it’s more than I can bear
I feel so empty

You’re strong
I’m weary
I’m holdin’ on
But I feel like givin’ in
But still You’re with me

And even though I’m walkin’ ( Read more... )

I
miss
love
.

I miss the feeling of being in love with someone that I can hold.  With someone who I can stare into their eyes and feel safe, and be absolutely adored.  To be held...not as an item to be won, not as a possession, but as a beloved...tenderly, worthily.  I miss laughing and hugging and cuddling next to that boy.  "It's better to have ( Read more... )

"Zero"

Your Life dreams are shattered,
Now you're gone away.
We've cried here for hours,
And the hours turn to days.
We know you regret this,
Leaving us here,
With portraits and memories
That we've held so dear.

When I hear your name, it's not the same.
No matter what they say, I'm not okay.
And we started at zero, and went different ( Read more... )

Chip Ellis will never be forgotten

There's no one in town I know
You gave us some place to go.
I never said thank you for that.
I thought I might get one more chance.
What would you think of me now,
so lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that,
now I'll never have a chance.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads ( Read more... )

tonight as i sit here by myself, i am cherishing the memories of lost friends.  In my young life, i've lost several buddies and my brother, and the pain comes back every now and then like a knife piercing your heart.  It sucks because some people forget and most people dont know the kind of pain, the kind of hurt, the kind of sorrow, the kind of ( Read more... )

So its interesting to be at a point of transition.  People transfer from school to school and nobody knows where they'll be in 5 years.  It's hard to develop relationships knowing that very shortly we will part ways and perhaps never see each other again.  So why does God bring people in and out of our lives?  To make the most of every moment spent ( Read more... )