I want the people I love to know that I love them. I want these people to know that they're so important to me, and that they mean the world to me. That I appreciate each and every thing that they do.

But instead I push people away. I ignore them, all in the while, obsessed with them, and praying that they don't leave me.

This year, for Mother's Day ( Read more... )

I am utterly and madly in love with Avery. 

How do you get close to people when you keep pushing them away because you're too insecure to get close to people? I feel like if I open myself up to people, they will criticize me and judge me. Yet there's people trying to get ahold of me, but I keep pushing them away because I'm afraid of alienating them too. So in a sense, I have alienated ( Read more... )

Hear, hear. :)

I proved to her that Huong is indeed a girl. What did the stupid bitch say (without even looking at the damn picture or at me?) "I don't believe you. Go away. I don't want to talk to a horrible child like you ( Read more... )

I think worrying is such a selfish emotion. Because the worrier is never worried FOR a person, but about a person, or about their taxes or about their midterm or about something that ultimately has to do with them. People who can worry solely on the basis of how something would affect that other person are indeed doing a rare act, because ( Read more... )

My god. I heard this Coldplay song, "Fix you" on the radio, and even though he was talking to Gwenyth Paltrow after her grandpa died, it just describes my world right now. Every day for me is this song. And of course, when I heard it, I started crying. Somebody understands ( Read more... )

What is stress ( Read more... )

Yesterday I finally went to return the series of outfits (some of you have seen them and did some constructive criticism on my, er, stylized lab coat) to the Express at the Stanfod Shopping Center after work at Stanford yesterday. So I didn't bother to check my bag when I returned everything. So I watched as the cashier took out each item one by ( Read more... )

I think I should clarify one thing before I continue ( Read more... )