we called it quits... it over... we talked and we're friends... I think I'm fine... I miss him already... but the pain will slowly fade... and after all we'll both be okay... he's not the one... the one is a myth... you make love it breaks you... and the cycle repeats... in the words of shakira "siempre volvemos amar".... and perhaps in the next ( Read more... )

I fuckin done... he's not the one... theres no such thing.... he's shit to me... I'm shit to him... I'm fucking  done... he's hurt me enough.... so you may ask what did he do this time??? well it wasn't just this time...this time is simply jenga! he pulled too many pieces out from under me and I came crashing down.... I know he never loved me... I ( Read more... )

theres a shadow cast over us
the words that signal an end
and its an end that just doesn't end
so please hold  the time
make it stop for a minute so 
we don't have to say it
crank the hands backward and we'll be fine
I'll hold your hand  
and you hold mine
we'll stop this clock so we never say

good bye...

sometimes I wonder about existance... like what the fuck are we... why do we really do what we do? would we do it under different circumstances???  I'm a mess... concealed under a flawless face of paint... well since my last post.... ummm... the second guy I met at the bar yeah his name is Chris... yeah we had been talking.... I really kinda digg ( Read more... )

so my last post was how life was so great.... well now... its not.... he's leaving... and I'm still here... ah... i think I'm okay now...  if you would have asked me a week and a half ago... I would have said I was going to die... I adore him...  but he needs to be away from me... I'm crazy.. I know I am... I've been crazy for a long time... I'm an ( Read more... )

my life is good with a few minor exceptions.... I'm kinda poor... which sucks.. but its getting better... my car is kinda dying but it still runs... so that okay... but my loves are perfect... I love geno dominguez so fucking much.... we've had our issuses in the past but now... I'm so sure this is meant to be... we help eachother... the sex is ( Read more... )

well... whats wrong with me? well basically everything that has been wrong with me since the begining of time.... ha.. i exagerate... gene... well since about a week and a half before the baby was born he's been here... after the baby was born he's been staying with me.... i don't know what we are.... we fuck... he holds me... i love him... i have ( Read more... )

photos!!!!
yeah i'm a fucking proud parent!

oh i look soooooooooooo fuckin hot!!!!!!! haha

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he was born march 15.... he's fucking awesome.... i love him more than i ever thought i could possibly love anyone ever.... he is truely my everything... i will post a few pics soon.... michelle i miss you my love.... hopefully i'll see you soon... maybe next month i can go see you...
<3
ruby

well the last month... ummm... I finally told geno I loved him about a week ago... ummm... he got freaked out... but whatever I couldn't keep it to myself a second longer.... I think it freaked him out cause it forced him to deal with both of our emotions... I can't let him go... I adore him... I need him... I know I say it every entry... but I ( Read more... )