gad this hurts... trying to let go... cause I can't seem to block out the moments when he made me feel as if I were floating... but I know I must... for his good and mine.... cause in the moments when he held me and looked me in the eyes like there was no one else I swear I lost my mind in those moments and I lost myself.. but I'm here sitting ( Read more... )

Fuck I seriously think I need mental help ( Read more... )

Gad I love him... more than I ever thought would be possible... I can't function properly if I haven't felt him in over a week... fuck... he is my everything... so much so that I would give up everything just for him... gad he is my fucking world or atleast the only part that seems to matter to me right now... I wish I could just die/live in his ( Read more... )

I'm just gonna rant about him... so feel free to stop reading at any time.... so saturday amber and I went to see walk to the line and to the mall... walk the line is awesome!!! yeah... I decided I want my last name to be CASH... that is a badass last name.... after I dropped of amber I thought to myself... hmm.. I should go by the shop see if he's ( Read more... )

gas prices are down... haha.. I filled my tank with 30 dollars

gad I fucking need him... and i'm willing to wait for him forever... honestly he crosses my mind atleast 676467945657874648974654 times a day... the hard thing is thinking about something else... gad... I need to breathe... but yeah enough about that ( Read more... )

waringing the following contains explicit detailsI fucked him this morning... I suppose it was his birthday present... well how did it happend? well I had called him at about 9:30 and I was like can I see you? and he was like right now I'm going to pick up a keg and I was like okay don't worry about it... and he was like umm what about after like ( Read more... )

ummm.... latest developments... well I fucking called gene with the intention of telling him off and yelling at him... we all know it didn't happen.... well I did actually get a conversation of some substance out of him though.... well he doesn't like the name I have picked out... saturday gene almost died... that would have really fucking sucked ( Read more... )

fuck... lately my life has been pretty fucking boring... I've decided to go talk to gene in person... since I had this idea A Million terrible thoughts have passed through my head... like what if he totally disses me... what if he has some other girl that hes into at the shop?.. and all kinds of other terrible what ifs.... fuck... I hate how ( Read more... )

well I sorta talked to gene last night but not really.... umm... I was already asleep... but then I heard Jack johnson singing sitting waiting wishing and I realized that the person I'll wait for forever was on the line....well what was established? well its finally sinking in for him... ummm yeah its was a fucking akward 15 minutes of conversation ( Read more... )