You are...(looks)
[x] tall
[ ] in between
[ ] short

[ ] blonde
[ ] redheaded
[x] brunette
[ ] black-haired
    ::does dyed hair count? naturally i'm a blonde, but now i'm a brunette::
[ ] blue-eyed
[x] brown-eyed
[ ] green-eyed
[ ] hazel eyed
[ ] gold eyed
[ ] grey eyed

[ ] with glasses
[ x] with contacts
[ ] with braces
[ ] ( Read more... )

okay well i have two more exams left. i am almost done with high school!
i cannot wait. i graduate on sunday and i will be out of here forever! wOOt!

i've been studying my ass off for government and physics.
i'm still going to fail physics but i'm very confident about government.
besides, we get a notecard.

yesterday i picked up andrew and joel, ( Read more... )

i loathe exam week.
at least i didn't have any yesterday.
instead, i went to the court house and got my passport stuff.

then i partied with andrew.
hee hee.
i also saw kris for a little bit.
i dropped by his new place.
its nice.
he has a kitten.
it's cute.
but i'm still upset with him/

today is journalism at 8 and digital photography at 1.
( Read more... )

last night was a major bust.
drank a lot at the pier with andrew and schriner.
drank too much.
then i went home and continued my drunken escapade by yelling at all my family members.
then i started freaking out and bawling.
and i had a nervous breakdown.

after i had my breakdown my mom wouldn't let me leave, which is exactly ( Read more... )

i'm in no mood for antics or escapades.
i want nothing more than to sit alone
and drink my lovely drink.
i've been off work for 2 hours and am still doing nothing.
i'm sick of waiting.
for nothing.

i'm so........
i don't even know.
my insides are all squirming
i'm confronted with a bottle of antidepressants.
pills for crazies like ( Read more... )

i'm so lost in all of this bullshit.
i just don't understand.
there are feelings
but any sort of relationship is out of the question.

i miss kris.
i miss talking to him and hearing whats on his mind.
he was a staple in my life.
and he's gone.
he doesn't give a damn.
but i never expected him to.
and i don't condemn him for not wanting to hang out ( Read more... )

so fucking confusing. the house is empty. we're all moving on. what the fuck!?

he's furious with everyone. including me.

what am i to do?

carrie

kris,

i didn't mean for you to find out anything through my stupid fucking online journal. i wanted to tell you about my action. i wanted to tell you about how much my life's been changing. but i was too weak and too afraid. i was afraid of your reaction. i didn't tell you because i was afraid you'd hate me. you know how much fear is a weakness of ( Read more... )

i'm scared to talk to kris about some things.

i haven't been honest with him. i feel horrible. i want to tell him everything thats on my mind and let him know how i feel about things.

i'm afraid he'll hate him. he's the last person i ever want to hate me.

i saw robbie the other day when i was with andrew and it actually made me miss him. i miss ( Read more... )

what a fucking retard.

thinking... aloud??
i don't think so.

waiting for andrew.
waiting and waiting and waiting.
what do i do?

its only after you've lost everything
that you 're free to do anything.

apparently my hair looks nice today. my mom and andrea just told me that...
its sort of getting on my nerves.
i'm really pissed off ( Read more... )