the emptiness in my heart is like nothing any of you have experienced before. i'm sick of people telling me to move on. i know you're all just looking out for me, but you need to realize that what has happened between jonathan and i is very different that what any of you have experienced. to want to be with someone and to have them want to be with ( Read more... )

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Go to Wikipedia. Type in your birth date (but not year). List three events that happened on your birthday. List two important birthdays and one interesting death. Also, list one important holiday. Post this in your journal ( Read more... )

i feel as if i have bundles to say. but i don't. i have a lot going on in my head, but i'm deciding not to concern myself with it ( Read more... )

my friend told me to take this personality test. just for the fuck of it ( Read more... )

straight up, this is my ( life )

i must say thanks to elliot for that from my facebook wall.
i know i'm such a loser... so addicted to the fucking facebook. last ( Read more... )

i don't know what's going on in my head.
there are so many ideas...

the bucks got andrew bogut in the first round draft on tuesday.
he is so fucking fine.
7-foot-1. 20 years old.
from australia.
hee hee.

there has been no progression with jonathan.
i was hoping to see him last night but he was with his brother.
and he didn't answer his phone.
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rest of the cruise was okay.

i hung out with jonathan last night. just him and me the whole time.
loved every second of it.
can't get over how adorable he is.

but i'm expecting too much.
i know its never going to turn out how i want it to.
but i guess i gotta deal with whats now.

i'm so damn tired i'm going to sleep.

carrie

well i'm on my cruise ship right now. paying $.25 a minute to update this stupid piece of shit.

it's been pretty bitching so far. went to nassau on saturday and got sunburnt and then went and sat on the sun deck and got more sunburnt.

then today we went to coco cay (yes, cay, not bay) and rob and i went on waverunners, parasailing and snorkling. ( Read more... )