I'm here again ( Read more... )

2 dates in 2 days with 2 guys.
Result? The cuter the guy, the more retarded I act.
Talking does not seem to be one of my strengths.
i'm glad I didn't set up date number 3 with guy number 3 tonight.

I would have:


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School is a parasite. It's a simple as that.

I can't believe that in this country, we are now allowed to murder innocent people by hearsay alone, in a cruel and unusual, inhumane way as long as they're unable to speak for themselves ( Read more... )

Don't get me wrong. I love my friends and they love me; but in terms of love, this place is not where I want to be. There's nothing for me.
But I won't leave because security is a pleasant trap. My goals can be achieved easily, but my needs are not being met and I am stifled and supressed.
depressed. distressed? what a mess.

I sometimes wonder why things are the way that they are. I can't figure out why explosions occur for benign reasons and why reasoning is lost for stupid reasons. Then I think that maybe it's better to feel nothing. If everyone felt nothing, there would be nothing. Maybe we need nothing. Maybe I need nothing. I wish I had nothing.

I almost ate ice cream, but when I took a closer look...
the ice cream at hand was really a fruit sorbet instead.
Oh well. I wonder if i'll ever taste the creamy sweetness of ice cream again.

i feel like the fat girl on a diet in a crowded ice-cream parlor.

BUT I refuse to eat festering leftovers from the garbage-can.
Festering leftovers are always happiest amongst themselves, indescriminately choosing other leftovers in the over-flowing garbage.
Why should I care?
i'm not festering in the garbage. I'm just starving in the suburbs.

Tomorrow starts a new year. What does that mean? Nothing.
Just a different number to tack onto the end of 200_.
My resolution:
I resolve to make no resolution to resolve anything.