Well thats it. I dont even know why i bother anymore. Nobody seems to give a fuck about what i have to say anymore! My best friend wants to kill herself and wont speak to me. Apparently when i asked her if she wanted to be left alone i was turning the conversation onto me. I dont get how that works but apparently it does. All i was thinking was ( Read more... )

does anyone even bother reading my livejournal? i mean is there actually any point in me writing in this any more because nobody seems to bother.

why is it that all my friends are slowly disapearing? all the ppl i am close to just seem to be vanishing off the face of the earth and i never seem to hear from them again so whats going on? things are changing and im left on the side lines not knowing whats happening. Pingu is pregnant and has gone. Nona went to new york and havent heard anything ( Read more... )

well i was in york today with jenny and a few of her friends. it was a really good day until about oneish. we were sat in a pub and the conversation started about carrie. it turns out they all know her too. this got me thinking. it is just me who she hates and of course this led on to my feeling of rejection. :( rejection sucks. i always used to ( Read more... )

There's been an accident, and my memory's been wiped. I have no recollection of who I am. Tell me about myself. What do you know about me? What kind of person am I? What are my likes and dislikes? How did we meet and how long have we known each other? Is there one thing in particular that stands out about me? Tell me who I am. When done, post this ( Read more... )

nobody wants to talk to me :( every time i send someone a message they never seem to reply. i think everyone is just too caught up in their own lives to see whats going on with me. im slipping further and further in this downward spiral called life and things dont seem to be looking up at all. I just wanna get it all over with then i can die in ( Read more... )

lost. lost in a sea of self loathing. everyone seems to be moving on in life without me. im being left behind in life. maybe thats where i belong. behind life. beyond comprehension. the emotional pain i feel inside rises each day along with the physical. I feel like i have nowhere to turn ( Read more... )

Why do grandparents never undersand what I am? They wont let me do anyting any more. Every idea i tell them they find faults with it. They wont let me live my life how I want to live it. They think I should live how they want me to be. They have always dressed me up to be this smart little boy but thats not who I am any more. I have wanted to grow ( Read more... )

I have found a fate worse then death. Being stuck in this college on a friday afternoon. People wonder why i wanna kill myself and dont see that the tutors are a part of my suicidal tendancies. Di makes fun of me nearly every week and tries to stop me from listening to my music, the only thing that keeps me sane around here. Someone had their music ( Read more... )

sometimes i wonder if i am actually here. i mean nobody actually notices me do they? i walk around not even knowing who i am myself, if i dont know who i am how can anyone else know? does anybody out there who claims to know me ACTUALLY know me? I walk around in a world of my own because i arnt wanted in this real world. People say they understand ( Read more... )