I swear I think I have a half a chance at life and then realize that i just got used once again!!!! It can get old but I understand it can only happen if we let it and for some ungoddly reason I do just that ( Read more... )

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Tomorrow is 4 years since the end of the life I loved and cherished.  I willed my self to pull through and fought to come home to my kids only to learn they don't seem to care if I survived.   And I will never know why, it is so unnatural but it is what it is and I will always love my babies and when they come to me asking for forgiveness I just ( Read more... )

checking this out I think it will be easy to work with

 

Got another Scholarship for school today and it is cool but have no one who cares to tell so I will just tell the world. I used to get all excited thinking of all the things I could give my 2 sweeties with my money if I got my school paid for. But Tough Love is going to be as tough for me as them but I will never walk away wondering the motives ( Read more... )

trying again

I am really trying to have a great site here and hope anyone that does look at my page is kind. I don't need any drama in my life as I feel I create plenty. So if it seems like the site is going bonkers and that is bothersome to you don't look at it for awhile. Peace

I looked at my entries and I know no one reads them but it looked like I am upset all the time, but is that not when you use a journal???? Well, I have figured some things out like, in order to really love someone you must love yourself, and not in a way that is toxic as in you do anything to make them love you including going against your better ( Read more... )