Okay so I'm still a little resentful about Jay, I have to be honest here. I know enough to leave him alone because he's happier without me, but that's all it is right now, I just can't understand why I'm so unattractive to him, I don't know if that has anything to do with it actually. I wish I knew the answer. I miss him so much some times. There's ( Read more... )

how much conviction do you have. its all about deception, its just the way you are ever since i first knew you and the way you always will be. of course im still thinking about you because i love you, but only what you pretended to be until your true side came out. i cant even tell whats real anyway because when im awake i just think im having a ( Read more... )

My hair is back to its original color, I feel like myself again.
Ugh, I'm totally not in the mood to finish these projects...can someone do it for me? Im going to go take a break for an hour. x.x
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The only way I could stop loving him is by trying to forget he ever existed.

The end and thats final. Everything is going to be better this way. Fuck him. I'm already over it.

I would like to buy my watercolor teacher's book. She is crazy and I like her ( Read more... )

I will be content
only when my
truth is better
than your
fantasies.

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But now I look at love ( Read more... )

Not feeling so well, can't hide it. I can't even if I tried. I'm in so much pain I just can't... I have to go to school in an hour... I'd rather die honestly then go to fashion school in an hour, but I do things all the time I don't want to do so why should this be any different. Don't know what I was thinking, I guess I thought it would get better ( Read more... )

Time heals pain only if you don't try to control it and just let it be. Feels like a battlefield. He said he loves me because he's a sociopath, he meant nothing he ever said to me. He was never worth my affection, not even a thought. I'll always have a place for him in my heart anyway because he was enough of a conceited fool to think being with me ( Read more... )