My heart hurts...it never stops hurting and causing me tears at night. All I can do is wait cause any temporary fix only makes it ten times worse in the end. I can live a fulfilling life and be in pain at the same time. When I talked to him or seen him I just physically start shaking, there is nothing there for me anymore. If I never felt the way I ( Read more... )

I'm looking for a change in myself. I'll do whatever it takes to get there.

"That which doesn't kill you, can only make you stranger." If you fall off you're insane. I know in my heart that boys are useless to the improvement of any sort of future I may have a chance of having. *tear* its so unrealistic to think that i wont end up as a shattered and abused housewife unless i change a lot of things! starting to become the ( Read more... )

kitty coming soon.<3

i cant handle this anymore. i have to run away...

Hes not coming back.....ever. I wish I knew how to act the way I feel and say what I really mean. I thought it was a game before...I didn't really believe it. I don't really want him now, theres only so much I can take and I'm not the best girl for him anyway, I wish I could be. I'm only going to get worse &he's only going to get better, it's ( Read more... )

God help me please not to repeat the same mistakes I already made. I really don't think I can do it this time, it's too hard to resist. I set myself up for failure constantly. How long can I go about the way that I'm living that's full of things I truly have to be grateful for without just destroying it because of one very strong resentment of the ( Read more... )

I miss him sometimes...whatever. I don't really want to call him. I don't get anything out of that anymore.

I miss him sometimes, but whatever. I don't really want to talk to him or anything. You know it's not really too deep, it's not even something that needs to be discussed anymore. I have more fun anyway without him around and you know we did help eachother a year and a half ago, then it became fucked up, maybe it was never really what I felt that it ( Read more... )

Hey, so glad you could make it ( Read more... )