my roomate is going through too much. i hate this. why do bad things happen to good people? it sucks. she doesn't deserve the pain and suffering. i wish i could do something. all i can do is be positive around her while keeping my emotions in check. hopefully it doesn't consume me.

life is funny. it changes faster than the randomness of the weather. its crazy. my ex is trying to become more of a figure in my life. the guys i'm seeing have way too much going on. work is just becoming more and more challenging. life is good because i'm still alive and breathing. God has his work cut out for him because i'm just too much

i'm so sad. my heart hurts and i don't know if i'll be able to function ever again. i feel that there is just no real closure. i hate how i don't have all my answers. i hate how he avoids the topic and me. i hate how we are not together.

life has been interesting. my mom is out but held in custody. she is living out in LA but she is working in santa monica. i've been drowning in my work and Aaron. With all the chaos, i still manage to think and dream about Will. i don't understand this. a little part of me still wonders...i want to know whether or not he is doing alright. i want to ( Read more... )

i'm a little pissed off. a government site that i am supposed to examine for my job tells me nothing. it gives me information on how to go out facing particular scenarios, but it doesn't give me the most important information, the procedure. sigh... i hope the other sites will be somewhat helpful.

its been interesting. after i resigned from being a resident advisor and pianist, i interview with kelly scientific at the beginning of january. they are a temp agency located in orange county. within a week, they already set up 3 interviews with CalScience, Neutrogena, and Remedy Environmental. in addition to those interviews, i already schedule ( Read more... )

its just been kind of crazy. i wonder what will happen. within a week, i have resigned from both of my jobs. i have yet to see where God will lead me. its hard to just sit back and relax. all i can do is just job search, apply, and wait. its so frustrating. sometimes i wish that i were someone else. its funny. i act like i'm the only one who is ( Read more... )

everything has been crazy. i had finals this week. it was a tiring journey. i must have only gotten an average of 4-5 hours of sleep. it was intense. half of my finals went alright, but the other half, i'm kind of worried about. well, i will find out the results next week. besides that, coach was mad at me for 4 days. he has no right to compare me ( Read more... )

this past weekend was interesting ( Read more... )

my birthday week is now coming to a close. it was definitely a bumpy ride. on my birthday, i thought i was going to take my economics midterm, but it just so happens that the photocopy center on campus lost the midterm. afterwards, khoa (my bestfriend), victoria (his girlfriend), sis, and i went to a thai restaurant for lunch. later on that evening ( Read more... )