goodness...its been awhile. last weekend was a blast. i took a spontaneous trip to orlando to visit my best friend. she threw a party for her birthday and debut for her band. it was great. i arrived friday on the 23rd at around 5:30pm. from there, we went to her band rehearsal for about 3 to 4 hours. some how i am amazed at how i managed to study ( Read more... )

school just started last week. everything seems alright, but deep down inside, there is just way too much going on. my mom's is going through some legal issues and i have been praying every night that it will be alright for her. as for me, it looks like i will be in carson for this last semester and then go back home, which is fine by me. as for my ( Read more... )

there is sunshine directed my way. eventhough everything is crazy, i feel at ease. thank the man upstairs. sometimes when we try to do things by ourselves, it doesn't work out. when we ask God, the impossible can happen.

hhhhmmm...what's going on with me? life seems to be taking off without me. i'm too caught up in the past. its getting better. i try not to dwell too much in that direction. i just hope that i continue to move forward rather than backwards. right now, i have been applying for chemistry lab positions. i'm still waiting for responses and so far i have ( Read more... )

i'm sad. eventhough its sunny, i feel like it should rain. at least in the rain, i can be by myself. the company of people doesn't really help. it gives that temporary distraction. when all is done, i return to my room, to my sorrow. i don't want to feel anymore. i just want to grow numb. is it too much to ask to be someone else? to be in someone ( Read more... )

who knows what life will bring at my doorstep? i am constantly striving for something. i don't know if i am going the right way, but in time, i will know.

life has definitely been about finding the truth in things. when i ask for the truth, it eventually comes in different forms. its just up to me to actually embrace it. i just recently found the truth about someone and it hurt me to the core. i wish he would be different, but you can't expect someone to change. i wanted to be optimistic, but when ( Read more... )

just to let you know...I JUST FINISHED SUMMER SCHOOL!!! the finals were hard and i'm kinda of scared of what my grades will be. who knows... i'm done and i will know the results on tuesday ( Read more... )

last night was a going away dinner for my dear friend Judith. i will miss her. she will be moving to vegas which is only 4 hours away... sigh, it will definitely give me and the girls reason to head out that way. anyway, it was a surprise dinner for her. there were some moments where i thought she had figured out our little secret. when i was at ( Read more... )

no matter how hard i try to fight it...it still gets me to the core. although i have been getting know other guys, josiah always occupies my thoughts. i still love him. this love hasn't lessened one bit. and now...he's back from japan. i haven't seen him and i know a visit is inevitable. i wonder how it will be. we talked this afternoon about the ( Read more... )